The one about my brother

I hope my bro doesn't read this, cause it's embarrassing.

I just realised what a great person my brother is. He's getting his O's results today, and I sincerely hope he does really well, from the bottom of my heart.

I hate the times when we will get into a fights and verbal insults. I hate myself for the times I scold him for being lazy or not being serious about his schoolwork or when I use the word 'stupid' to him. Because he's not any of these. Sometimes, such a simple word which I frequently throw about when I'm angry can have a profound impact. And I hate myself when I verbally attack my brother for things which I know will hurt him. He's never done the same to me, and it makes me feel terrible.

Right. It's the guilt speaking.

I hope he does well for his Os.

The one about my profile

Just for laughs, I clicked on the 'my profiles' link on the right today. (---->) See that?
To my surprise, I realised that I had about 777 views for my website. I do not know how they calculate it, because it might be 777 in this month, or 777 since I started having a profile page (which I figure is about 3 months ago).

But seriously, I didn't know so many people clicked on it.
Ok, so maybe 'many' is relative... I'm sure others got so many profile clicks, blogger gave up on counting them.
But 'many' in this sense meant that I had expected to have say 100 views.

Oh well.

Had a fruitful Wed and Thurs. Wednesday I went to choose clothes. Not buy, choose. I used to say 'What's the point of looking/choosing if you can't buy it?!'... seriously. I love to buy clothes. You should look at my closet, and my bank account for that matter. But this time it's for a photoshot, so I could only choose clothes for the models to wear. And I love choosing guy clothes anyway.

Then I went to meet Weiyuan for lunch at Taka. Had lunch at pasta place then at coffee bean. Actually it was a little weird la... I don't know. He kept talking about his gay friends. Hah.

Thursday I went for APB meeting. Actually I'm kind of glad that I'm in this group, cause they are really good. (I was initially upset for something that happened that had nothing to do with them) I think we'd churn out a pretty kick ass report. Heh.

Then met Caleb and Daniel with the mentoring kids to go play LaserQuest! Hahaha... remember Laserquest? It used to be so popular. I remember going after school to play LQ with my friends. Heck, my brother had his 12th birthday celebration. LQ was hip, I tell you. Today it's not that popular, but still fun nonetheless. (In the sense that, no, I did not play. But it was fun watching them play. Hah)

Recently, someone (Y) has been really getting on my nerves. Honestly. I wonder how much more I can take. (No, it's not any of you whom I know has read/are reading this blog)

Ok. I'd *love this jacket if it was about 1 - 2 sizes smaller. It makes me feel very Carrie Bradshaw. (She is my new fashion idol) Actually Lizzie Jagger modelled this jacket for Mango, I'll try to dig out a picture of it.  

I got to eat the cheese and mushroom pie from Coffee Club!!! Yayyyyyy!!!!!!! It was delish. *loves* 

After 2 years in SA, this became pretty cliched. But it still touches something in me when I read it. Indeed, no one is here by chance.  

Arts Village *heart*  

A photo of me after tanning at Sentosa. The effect of my sunburn is not that evident in this photo. (And yes, I am aware that I look a little possessed. Heh.) 

My first real Yusheng with my family! I mean, only the family alone and not with the extended family. My second real yusheng (with the raw fishes)... first was with the bv mentors :D. There were peanuts sprinkled in it, so I had to painsakingly pick them out. If my eye swells up anytime soon... well.  

1030am Tuesdays. I'll be at AS3 outside the LT, having an oatmeal raisin cookie and Americano from Spinelli. I think I give them a pretty steady income every tuesdays and fridays. Oh yes, I studied a little too, did one chapter of Marketing Management.  

Godmum and David at the reunion dinner. I love this photo cause it looks so happy! (No, they are not laughing or pointing at me haha.) 

Firefox, sushi and alma maters.

Firefox and stuff about lappie

Ok. This is weird. I've just (finally) lugged my lappie to the com centre today and found out that my IE is hopelessly dead, so I'll have to switch to some other browser.
Actually I'm okay with other browsers, just that I'm a creature of habit and don't really like to make that huge a change. (Yes, Mr. Gates, I'm your minion.)
So I hope Firefox one day take over the world, so I'll feel more comfortable. Currently as I'm typing on Blogger, I don't have the 'toolbar' that you guys have, you know, the Bold, Itallic, Underline, Http links options. This sucks. So I've got to add in the html tags myself.

ETA - When I'm in 'edit' mode, the toolbar appears. Weird.

But I do love my firefox for the sole reason that it looks nicer than IE. Hurhur.
I hope nothing bad happens to lappie again cause I do hate lugging my laptop down to com centre, even if the tech guys are actually really nice people.

Anyway, I finally (again) lugged myself down to Challanger at Funan to buy the Japanese laptop cover.
Ok it's not technically called the Japanese laptop cover, but the only thing I could remember about it was a bunch of Japanese words on the tag, so it IS the japanese laptop cover to me.

I got there at about 750, it was closing at 800. Rushing over to the laptop cover place, I scan for japanese words. Nada, zilch. So the Challenger guy came over and senses my distress. Yes, distress. My lappie cannot be unprotected!! He said he'd inform me when the covers are in.

Sushi

Yesterday, the gang had part 3 of the great buffet showdown. Me, Siewlee, PS and Sam went to Sakae Sushi at Heeren for the sushi buffet and man, can we eat. It is almost reminiscent of the days of the dim sum breakfast (except this didn't cost a whooping 150 bucks! :D)

We ate 50 plates of food!!!!! Hahaha... When the waitress came over to clear the first round of 20 plates, the group of guys behind us went 'Wow!'.
Contrary to popular belief, I think girls who can eat a lot impresses guys. (Haha) Unless the 'wow' actually conveyed a sense of shock as in 'wow, those girls are sure pigs!' Haha.

Love sushi. Much love the mochi ice cream.

Alma maters

I went back to SA! The SAJC fun fair was really good, and I thought it was immensely more fun than what we had in our year. This year's one was really... well, for the lack of a cooler word, happening!

They had the World's Tallest Men (notice I wrote that in caps? :) That's cause they are the World's Tallest Men. Ha ha.) But I thought it was bad how they were paraded like sideshows or freakshows in circuses...
You know? 'Step right up! And meet the men with 2 faces! And now we have... The tall freaks!!!'
That left a bad aftertaste.

And the marshmellows are great. It makes me want to go melt some chocolate now and drizzle it over my toasted marshmellows. :D

Alma Mater Duex

Also went to steamboat dinner with the 4E4 crew at Kelvin's place. It was fun catching up with them again. And some people I haven't seen since... oh wow, like, 3 years! I couldn't even recognise Junhong! I had to stare at him for a long time before I went *slap forehead* 'Junhong!'

And gosh! Kelvin's steamboat include abalone as well! Haha... If I invite my friends over for steamboat, I'm not so sure if I'd add abalone as one of the ingredients. I'd joke about it, but actually do it? Hm.

Later Kelvin said something like 'isn't is funny how when you guys stay over, I don't feel like it's weird, but when my other friends linger around after steamboat, i'd be wondering when they'd leave'. Haha... I guess that's a compliment. Later talked a little more to Clarence and Weiyuan when Clarence drove us back. Who knew he didn't mind me and Ming taking his photo? Hahaha.

Someday we'll know

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow.
I watched the stars crash in the seas.
If I can ask God just one question...
Why aren't you here with me tonight?

Her royal highness

Hm, maybe I need to go look Prince Wills soon, cause I'll need to marry him.

Hahaha...
I quote -

Sign no. 1 'You come across as the very princess-y type'
But this sounds like I'm a spoilt brat. Haha
Sign no. 2 'Don't know why, but I always get the 'queen' feeling from you'

Prince Wills, do you hear that? 'Her Royal Highness' would be such a great addition to my resume. :D

Strange dreams

I don't know what to make of it when I'm running towards my laptop as I see a flashing MSN message, then to have my laptop being snatched away by the bakers at Breadtalk who happened to be my friends from JC.

I start to think that you might not be real

Yesterday I was sitting at the benches near coffee club express at arts. When I was leaving, I turned around and I thought I saw K. It was a really surreal moment. I did what I did best in situations like these. I turned back immediately, gathered my files and walked away like I didn't see him. I glanced back, and he looked up, and walked towards me.

I didn't know what to do, so I walked into the washroom. I think I was practically running, cause I startled the girl who was coming out of the washroom. But I didn't know what to do... what should I say right.

Sigh.

And speaking about not being real. How real is thinking about someone 24/7? How real is thinking about someone so much even though you've only seen him on 2 occasions? And how real are you to him when he cannot even remember how your voice sounds like? How stupid does this make me feel?

I do start to think that it might not be real.

Nevertheless, it does make me unenthusiastic about dating.

Speaking about going out, I went out with Luke last friday. Watched Seoul Raiders. I love that film! It actually entertains me, Tony Leung make me want to kiss him, Ritchie Jen makes me what to marry him, and Shu Qi makes me want to curl my hair like hers. We later went to Cafe Cartel to hang out. Got the plushy seats heh. Later went to meet Chris at Indochine... I wanted to go clubbing but Indochine's too quiet, and Chinablack has such a long queue! I didn't want to queue so I went home.

Saturday was steamboat and mahjong with the mentoring people at Dan's place. I lost money at mahjong, but it's a small loss. Haha. I'll feel sad if I lose a lot of money, I think. Haha.

Sunday at Siong Eng's place... her 21st. Town planners proved to be inadequate as blk 442 is located miles away from blk 441. Anyhow... it was fun meeting up with the secondary school people again. Siong Eng looks prettier, Ming has a cool new haircut, Tungwhee is an officer and Kelvin drives a Mercs sports car. Haha... nice to know some things don't change though.

Today I went tanning with Moon! Haha... it was fun, and I have a great tan! Yay!!! Oh ya, hottie of Sentosa today is awarded to this cute guy playing volleyball at Sunset bay! Haha. He was playing volleyball with his friend, 2 of them against this group of 5 guys who are quite lousy. Haha.. his friend asked Moon and I to join them. The volleyball guy is really really cute! I think it's the ear stud. Never fails to slay me.

=)

Happy Vday all!

MoS I love you!

That wasn't very cool was it.

Anyhow. I bought Ministry of Sound The Annual 2005! Can't wait to listen to it. My first MoS cd... I would have bought a lot more if the rest hadn't been so expensive.

This is what I really (really!!) want - MoS Chillout Sessions 2004 . It costs 40 bucks. Bleah.

I see you baby

(Sorry, once again my title does not reflect anything other than the fact that I love Groove Armada haha)

Ok, anyway. Happy CNY everyone!

I read in some of my friends' blogs that the excitment of CNY seem to wean as you grow older. It's kind of true actually. I remember as a kid, I love love loved Chinese New Year. I loved going home from school on CNY eve and helping out with the last minute spring cleaning. I loved going to Chinatown to buy candies. I loved getting and writing new year cards. I loved waking up on new year's morning and to travel to grandma's house to meet my relatives.

But as years go by, the excitment seems to lessen. And gathering during cny takes on a different meaning. It's still a good thing, but the importance lies somewhere else, I guess. The importance of family.

Also, the house we always go to (2nd uncle's/grandma's house) will be sold this year, so next year, we will be celebrating cny at a different place. It's a little saddening, really. 21 years of celebrating at this place, and next year, we will be leaving lots of memories behind. Singing karaoke, playing computer games, chatting with relatives, chatting with strangers, drinking the yearly 'tian tang'... I guess it was inevitable.

Anyhow, enough of waxing nostalgia.

We went to reunion dinner with the extended family at this restaurant at somewhere. There were loads of people!!! Dad said it seems like some kind of movie theatre... we were eating in batches. Haha. Anyhow, we saw the other part of the extended family there. Seems like the whole world's eating at the same restaurant. I don't understand why there's such a crowd this year... previous year's dinner at other places aren't as crowded (and the food's better. Ha.)

First day of new year was similar to other years. But it was still fun. This year, we went out again for our yearly family lunch, but at a different place. This year we went to Jalan Kayu for prata. Mighty expensive prata, I may add... it totalled up to 120 bucks plus! Holy shite. 120 bucks for an 11 person lunch averages 10 plus bucks for prata per person. Prices are totally jacked up and the food's not that great anyway. Blah.

And the cousins are looking good. Cousin Ws and Wl brought their babies along too! So lovely... it just seems like yesterday when we were hanging out, and I still remember cousin Wl helping me braid my hair when we were younger. And now she's a mummy! Coolness. And who knew cousin Wq had such a cute friend. Haha.

I have to get to school tmr. Blah.

Eeeyuck!

This is part of the lyrics for 'Tilt your head back' by Christina and Nelly.
Please pay attention to the bold part

Hey! (Give her what she want, give her what she want uh)
[repeat 'til
end]
oooohooooh, oooh yea, ha!
Oh Nelly!Nelly, Nelly, you make me so sweaty
babyyeayeayeayeayeayea
OH!

This is so gross. You make me so sweaty?! Can't they think of any other sexier words to use?! Yuck Xtina does have something for filth huh, first 'Dirty', then 'sweaty'. Gross.

What about that?

Yesterday, I went out with Moon and 2 of her guy friends Ig and P. for a midnight show. We watched Flight of the Phoenix at Tiong Bahru and then went for supper at River Valley. Then we proceeded to look out for hookers. (Hahaha… I’m serious! I learnt that they always wear skirts.) It was pretty fun actually, although I was a little hesitant to go at first because I sometimes really dread going out with people I don’t know at all… and what with Moon in her ‘let me try to set Chris up with a guy’ moods. But I had fun… maybe because they were so friendly, and Moon has this knack for making the mood lighter… and one of them watches SATC! Haha.

[---Blah blah blah. I wrote some stuff here which I've later erased!---]

Ridiculous!

I am a little angry.

Today we had to form lecture groups for APB. And because of some obscure rule, we needed to find a foreigner to be in the group. So we approached this guy right... and I think he just ignored us. Then, he turned around immediately and asked the exchange students if he could join that group!

What the hell.

That's plenty rude.
I just don't understand why people just find the need to be so uncouth and rude. And judgemental. Val and ZW are 2 of the smartest and the most hardworking people I know. He's going to so regret that he didn't want to join our group.

/angry

Do I sound depressed?

:) Have been receiving feedback lately re: my blog. Looking back at the past entries, I did sound like I was quite depressed. I don't know... it never rains but it pours? Haha.

I don't know how to say this without sounding depressed, but I don't really know where I'm going from here. Like, from this point in my life.
I want to say something like 'I want something different to happen to me', but it would not fully encompass what I feel.

Today I wanted to go watch a movie alone. I've never done it before, and I figured since I was free today, I should just go do that, see how it feels like. Then I realised that all the films that were screening I either (1)had no interest in watching or (2) have watched it before.

I've been feeling really bored lately.
It's like I've no interest in whatever that happens unless it had something to do with (1)someone (2)shopping for clothes (3)shopping for shoes

Gee.
Even typing this makes me feel restless.
I really need to learn to be contented with my life or else I'd probably spend the rest of my life feeling unfulfiled!

Oh yes!! I want to make a t-shirt!
I want a plain white t-shirt (or tank top) with the words 'Pink Positive' on it. In pink, of course. Anyone knows where I can print t-shirts? I just want one.
Maybe wearing it will make me happier! :)

Also, I think I have to take care of myself more.
It's like, when I was feeling down, I always had a tendency to go something stupid which I'll later kind of regret. Like that time at the club with W, and I guess I was trying to prove something in front of him. Then I went ahead to dirty dance with this random friend of a friend. Like. Really dirty dance. Someone I don't really know. And thinking back, I realised how stupid that was, because, well kind of a stranger.
And the second time I felt like that, I went to Zouk, and well... did the same thing. Strange thing was that I didn't set out to go to Zouk to do just that. (I went there cause I promised to accompany a friend). And maybe because I was in that mood, I just did what I wanted. I did see him walk towards me. I did think he was cute. So I just dirty danced with him. Thank god I realised what the hell I was doing before anything, and Cher dragged me away.
See a tread? Restless = do dance with a stranger.
...So ya. I'm getting into that kind of mood again, so I better not go do something weird.