Wednesday, April 30, 2003

Hello!

Am craving for Chantel Kreviazuk's rendition of 'Leaving on a jet plane'. What a pretty song, and she sings it really nicely, poignant and somehow with a tinge of hope. Nice, nice.

Love the lyrics too; in a weird sense, I hope I'll be able to sing it someday, you know? Like when I'm leaving Singapore to live overseas for a couple of months, then I'll sing it to, uh, some guy. It'll be so cool. Like I'm starring in my own MTV or something, you know... Opens with a back view of the girl at the guy's doorstep. It's early morning, possibly about 7, and the sun rays are directly shining on the door that this girl is standing in front of. The same sun rays pick up the highlights in her hair, and the camera pans to show the side view of her face. Then a close up. The song starts, and and she starts to knock on the door. Then stops, because she 'hate(s) to wake (him) up to say goodbye'. She'll turn around, and walk towards the taxi that will take her to a jet plane. Then the camera will switch to a shot of the guy, possibly just waking up, and looks out the window to see the girl driving away in the cab. Or a more poignant one will show him still sleeping, oblivious, yeah. The camera switches to the girl again, as she looks out of the cab window and reminisce about days that she spent with the guy. About mid chorus ('Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane. I don't know when I'll be back again. Oh, babe, I hate to go'), the camera will switch to a shot of this guy, just waking up and maybe reading a note that this girl left on his table, or something. Then he'll realise, but it's too late. And the last shot will be that of the plane taking off the runway, as the letter falls from the hands of the guy.

Yeah, that's my MTV :) hahaha... getting a little fanciful, huh?

*Goes off to Kazaa.

What!!! Justin Timberlake sang 'Leaving on a jet plane' also? Ewww... That sounds very weird. I don't know, isn't he on this rock kind of genre now? And his voice...it's so sharp. How the heck can he sing such a pretty song? Will download a portion and listen to it. Can't imagine it really, like, a mixture of 'Cry me a river' and 'Leaving on a jet plane'? Yuck.

Oh, and can anybody tell me who the original singer of 'Leaving' is?
Ahhh! The stupid server just wiped out everything that I typed. *seethes

Anyway, as I was saying before I got wiped out. I think Mike is a little mad at me? Haha… Now it’s not often that you get me admitting that I do something wrong, but I think I was really horrible this time. Mike was nice enough to sms me after my Redang trip to ask me how was the trip. The problem is, I replied uh, 2 days later. I’m really awful aren’t I? But the sms really slipped my mind, and when I remembered, uh, it’s 2 days later. Yeah, so...

Oh, forgot to add this in my older entry. Gave Mike his bday present and he gave me mine. :) What with our bdays being so close. So nice! He gave me a Marie Claire Dessert book. (Hey...this is handy, I remembered I wanted to get something like that to make a strawberry cheesecake. I think I blogged it!) and a Bloom lipstick in Iridescent :D Nice.

Oook. Work was pretty normal today, nothing out of the ordinary happened. But then again, with a job like this, I can’t really foresee anything exciting happening.

Skills to learn to survive the workplace while slacking

1.Perfect the art of looking sidesways without appearing to look sideways.
2.Train your hearing such that you can hear even a slight shuffle of feet.
3.Fingers are trained to press the keys alt-tab with lightning accuracy in record time to change screen.

Like men change to adapt their surroundings, I’ve learnt new skills to survive in my workplace. With my new skills, I can slyly surf the web and update my blog while I surf. Without my boss knowing! Hah! Hahaha! I’m so smart, I scare myself sometimes. Hoho… You should have seen today. What with pressing alt-tab to change screens from the blog to MS Excel whenever Carla, Prof Koh or Dr. M walks pass. Haha… Actually it’s not so bad that they catch me slacking. But because I’m working with Ming, middle name ‘EFFICIENT’, I look really bad when I take a break. Because they’ll turn and see Ming at her desk working furiously. Eh.

From today onwards, I am going to keep a count of the number of cute guys that dropped by the office

Saw 1 cute guy(s) today.

Oh, the Redang photos should be out soon, maybe tomorrow or the day after! *excited.

Tuesday, April 29, 2003

Gaahhh! Am in the office right now. Guess what, the computer at my original table has broken down, and now I have to take up a new table. AT.THE.FRONT.OF.THE.OFFICE. It’s cubicle-less, so everyone can actually see what I’m doing now? Yeah. Eh I don’t care, in fact. The worse thing is that this ‘table’ I’m sitting at is actually not a workstation, it’s the counter of the Civil Engineering Office. *Feels like receptionist. Actually, come to think of it, it’s pretty cool. Yeeeeah. Right.

What a monologue.

Anyway, it's raining outside now. I love rain, but I wished I was somewhere else, not here in the office. It's the kind of rain I like, not the drizzling type, not the fierce thunderstorms ones either. It's the kind of rain that will last for hours, from the afternoon until late at night. It's a steady stream of pattering rain. Hits the windowpanes, and trickles down in a slowly. And when you look out from the window, there's this mist hovering about, such that you can't see clearly, only vague outlines. Vague car like shapes slowly crawling on the roads. Blurry people carrying umbrellas, and hunched towards the direction of the rain. In the distance, you faintly see the outlines of the building, and lights flicker on. You can't really see the building, but you can see the lights. There's a kind of romance about the entire scene. Makes me feel wistful. Makes me think what people are doing now.

What are you doing now? Are you in one of those buildings, looking out too? Are you in one of those rooms where the light is on? Are you one of the blurry figures on the sidewalk?

Gee. Am getting kind of romantic there huh?

Anyway, I guess it's one of the reasons why I like where I'm sitting. The counter place. It might have a lot of cons (AND IT HAS!) but I can look out, and it faces the port area. I can see the sea and it's beautiful. Beautiful in a uh... industrial kind of way, I guess.



Monday, April 28, 2003

Yay!

Just found money. Uh, in my bank. The teaching money from CHS came in! Hahahah… and I can expect a little more, b/c they pay in half-months. Hurrah! This should be enough to cover my shoes and this skirt I’ve been eyeing from Esprit. Don’t know… I would really prefer to buy Mango or Zara skirts than Esprit’s, though the Esprit one was quite nice. *shrug. Will see.

Anyway, first day at NUS Dept of Civil Engn today… was eeehhh… ok, I guess. I think I know why they give us a slightly higher pay though. It’s is to compensate for the money I’m gonna spend on eye gels. I swear, I’ve been staring at the computer for the whole day!!! I need an eye massage! Now! (Uh… is there such a thing? An eye massage? Don’t know. I know I need something like it) Anyway, think will go and buy the Bodyshop Elderflower eye gel. It is supposed to be pretty good? Right? Anyway, Sam and I went to Bodyshop to look for it, can’t find it and found out that apparently it’s going to be phased out!!! Arrgghh! They can’t be serious. So, any of you dependent on the eye gel, you might want to stock up. Eh Sam, this Sat, we go hunting for it k?

Well. Nick just called. And smsed. I don’t know about this. I mean, on one hand I could not be bothered about him. I don’t even know him!! But it’s just that, he’s so nice. Even when I didn’t sms back, he’d still continue smsing me. In a sense, it’s really irritating, but then again, I feel bad, and I had no choice but to reply. It’s like, people always treat me real nice (ie Yu, among others), and I don’t reciprocate this niceness. I feel really really bad… hum… I’m sorry, k? To those whom I’ve treated shabbily when you guys have treated me so well. I can be so callous at times.

Oh oh, went to look for PS and Pea today! Had dinner with PS at Ikea. What a slack job you have!!! :D I can sit there all day and stone, I don’t mind! So… PS had this Ettusais cream thingy that she was applying all over her forehead. Haha… don’t worry… it’ll take effect soon. :) Lucky! Such a fun job. Haha…

Ok, got to go sleep. Work tomorrow! *Yawn. Wish something exciting will happen real soon. But then again, it’s the Engineering faculty. What can happen? Booorriinggg!

Sunday, April 27, 2003

Arrgghhh! I saw the photos! Arrgghhh! They saw me in a state of untidiness!

Ok guys, the photos from Redang are out!!! Eeep! I think that I have no figure whatsoever. *sigh. Anyway, Sam and I took lots of ridiculous pictures like, uh, us eating and uh, combing our hair and what not. So we have to weed out the silly photos, the gross photos and the repetitive photos and present the best ones ok? :) It should be out in about 1-2 days. I realised that I didn’t have a photo of Sexy Dive Instructor!!! Askfsdgfks!!!!!! Bummed. Took so many silly photos and I do not have one of him! How stupid am I?!?! :( And also, I do not have a pic of myself in my Phuture lace up top! *fume. I am so forgetful. Anyhoo, will be attaching the URL for the pics soon.

Anyway, I forgot to add this for yesterday. I saw some of the CHS students at Woodlands library yesterday!!! How embarrassing! I was wearing glasses and had untidy hair; baggy capris, a Redang tank top :) and an old sweater. How unattractive is that? :( I pretended not to see them. Haha. I think one of them recognised me? Despite the fact that I look vastly different from my teaching days, when I wore makeup, contacts and had nice clothes. Lol. Gee. He was like, shocked, I think. Like, ‘this person looks vaguely like someone I know, but nah, she’s so nerdy, so it can’t be.’ Also, I think my tan made me, uh a little different. Hahahaha.

Arrr! New job tomorrow! Am nervous? Oh guess what, guess what? Had a funny dream yesterday. It was so real, I swear. I dreamt that I was talking to Alice, the administrator for CHS, and she’s like ‘Are you interested in coming back to CHS to teach? I need someone who can work until the middle of July.’ And I’m like, in a limbo, b/c I have to commit myself to the NUS job until mid July as well. I was really tempted to go back to CHS (in the dream), because, err… you know. But I couldn’t b/c I promised Ming I’d work with her in NUS. So, yeah. I woke up and was immensely relieved that it’s a dream. Sounds so clichéd right? Haha… Like the ending of a primary school composition – ’I woke up and was relieved to find it was a dream’. But strangely enough, that’s how I felt. Hum.

Saturday, April 26, 2003

Ewww... this guy has the grossest job ever.
Assorted thoughts. A little bit about SARS

*Frustrated.

I want to buy shoes! Charles and Keith has this gorgeous tribal style strappy sandals that I saw on Yan. But they do not have them in my size now!!!!!!! And I have to wait for about 2 weeks to 1 month! Arrgghhh!!! I want those shoes and I want them now!! I hate it. Why wasn't I born with size 5 feet? Why didn't my mum think to bind my feet when I was young? Why did Charles & Keith not manufacture more size 7s? Bleah. Actually I think size 7 feet in those little sandals would look kind of unflattering. Hmmm... Well, I don't care. Maybe should go to VNC at Citylink to check out if they have something like that. Yup, yup. I want shoes

Anyway, am thinking a little about Lionel/Leonard/Lenny from yesterday, and realised that he's actually quite cute? Yup. Didn't think too much about him at first, but later when he was walking me to the bus stop realise that he's actually quite cute. Eh. I'm slow, aren't I? Lol. Anyway, he's kind of cool as well. I mean, he likes cars! :D Same here! Although I am not too proficient in that topic, but am quite interested in cars. We were looking at cars on the road and uh, talking about them :) And both of us like speeeed! Fast cars and all. Okok. I know I haven't even passed my BTT, but who cares man! He drives!

*oh, message.

Wtf! It's Nick again. Has been smsing me this afternoon when I was at the library (Yesh, I am a nerd. Ok? Ok? I admit) Asked me out for a drink which I declined, and then asked if he could call me. Arrrhhhh. I didn't even bother to reply, and now he just smsed again!

Get. A. Hint.

Oh, oh. Mum bought those electronic thermometres. Those that you stuff into your ear and goes 'beep'. Yeah, it's that one. Lol, we are sure kiasee (afraid to die) Singaporeans, aren't we? Hahaha... so our Fight SARS plan includes Scotts Emulsion cod liver oil, checking of temperature every morning, and dad got N94 masks! Hee... we are fully prepared huh? :) Quite fun to play around with the thermometer actually. Perhaps am harbouring unconscious ambitions of being a doctor, no? Hahaha...

Am thinking about the news report just now, saying that about half of all SARS cases are of medical workers. Think that is really sad and ironic. Because firstly, they got SARS while helping to fight SARS. Secondly, they don't deserve it at all, unlike those under-quarantined idiots who still went around trying to infect people. Life is unfair! *angry. I am not a sentimental sniffily person (ok, maybe sometimes I am), but I think it's damn unfair that people who actually are helping and doing good are dying. While arseholes who are under-quarantine break their quarantine and go around announcing that they are breaking the quarantine. Just go and crawl back under your rocks. What disgusting people.

Bah, I'll just stop before I turn this into a rant fest.

Will see the photos tomorrow! I can't wait!

Friday, April 25, 2003

Went to SMU yesterday for the interview and report thingy. *sigh. I think I screwed it. I mean, arrr! The group discussions without the professors were so much better than the group discussions with the professors. I think the professors didn't like me. Bleah. Whatever, really. *mad.

So I was at SMU to verify my application and stuff and I got to the queue and before I said my name, the girl in the queue was like 'You're Christine right?' and I'm like, yeah. And she's like 'I know, because I was is Swiss Cottage as well'. I am quite embarressed to say that I didn't recognise her. Err... maybe she changed a lot. But she really didn't look like anyone I know. And I wasn't that um, famous in secondary school that every senior would know me. Um. Hmmmm.

I don't wanna talk about the discussion, so, yeah, the report. I think I screwed the report as well. I finished writing it, had about 10 minutes to spare before I realised that autobiography is different from memoirs. *sheepish. Haha. So I had to rewrite. Heh. But I guess it was okay in the end.

I wonder how would the rest of my discussion group do... most of the group who were vocal without the professors were pretty vocal in the prescence of the professors as well, except for me, I guess. Ah. Dang it. Oh, met this guy who's very nice. Um, can't really remember his name. Starts with L. Lionel? Leonard? Lenny? Anyhoo. He offered to walk me to a further bus stop which has my bus, about 10 - 15 minutes further. Then when we reached my bus stop, he said he had to take the bus from the other side. So, he had to cross the highway (it was at the Conoration Plaza place) :D. That was pretty sweet of him.

Oh, oh! NTU called for my Mass Comm application. I'm like wtf?! I screwed up my GP and they want to interview me for Mass Comm? I put that in 2nd choice as a joke actually. So does that mean that my first choice is denied? *faint. I must have NUS business!

Thursday, April 24, 2003

I’m back! Had a great time hanging out at the gorgeous beaches of Redang! Christine is back! With a tan! *Yay!

And now she’s back from the atmosphere with drops of Jupiter in her hair

Well! In my case it’s more probably ‘And now she’s back from the beach resort with drops of um, sea water in her hair’. Hee. So…many things to talk about but eh, let’s do it chronologically k?

**Sunday and Monday

And we drove off into the night
We started at the Tour centre, which is at Golden Mile Complex. Very suspect place, actually. Lots of Thai people. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t have anything against them but the place was so… gross. Like dirty or something. So Sam gave me my bracelet, the one that we went to the bead shop at Heeren to buy. Really pretty and funky. BUT I LOST IT! I think I lost it in the washroom at Golden Mile Complex. *sniff. And I had it for just 5 minutes! *whine. I hate to think that my gorgeous bracelet is lying in that dirty place. It’s like the last time I lost my favourite grey eraser.

I digress.

It was a night bus (9p.m) and we’re scheduled to reach Trengannu (sp?) at 8 the next day. Gaahh! What a freaking long trip. Dad, mum and Alex were there to see me off. Haha… lucky me, don’t have to lug my luggage about. Hee. The trip was pretty uneventful actually. Kimmy, Yan, Sam and I talked a little until about 1-2 am and then went to sleep. Made several pit stops during the night. Oh oh, the toilets. *shudder. It’s a bad memory. Very very dreadful. And disgusting. Eww…

And we reached Trengannu! It’s such a different city. A tired city and seemed to be lost in time. We switched to a minibus and guess what I saw! It’s a herd of cows! Just uh, ambling down the road like nobody’s business! And nobody was like, herding them either! It’s just the cows strolling down the road! It’s so funny! Like, I suddenly realised where to phrase ‘Till the cows come home’ originated from haha… Dang! I didn’t take a photo! Err…Christine the shutter happy. :P

So we drove to the jetty and switched to something like a speedboat ferry thing. I got boat sick! Argghh. Nearly puked, but it was all good in the end. Sam switched seats with me so all was good.

The search for Paradise

Redang!

You know Webshots? This website where there are these pretty scenery pictures of beach places?

Redang looks exactly like it.

It is gorgeous. It’s stunning. It’s breathtaking. Will post the photos later! Heh

We unpacked and went for lunch, which is, uh, pretty ok, and went for our first snorkelling trip! It was to this neighbouring island and it was fun! I think we look pretty funny in the lifejacket-snorkelling mask-flippers ensemble, haha. Anyway, the 4 of us waded around a little and saw was awed when we looked down and saw the corals and the hundreds of fishes! It’s like, a totally different world (duh, of course it is) and the fishes are like, so nonchalant! I mean, I don’t know if the fishes are actually shocked or anything. They look nonchalant. But then again, I have never seen a fish look shocked or anything.

Anyhoo.

First snorkelling trip. I feel like a human out of land!

We were like stupid shutter happy tourists. ‘Ooh! A fish!’ snap, snap snap ‘Ooh! A coral! snap, snap snap. But the experience was so wonderful and different. A guide came up to us and offered to take us around. *laugh. Feels special, because there are many people but only a couple of guides. His name is Nan and we nicknamed him Compass, haha, b/c that’s what his name sounds like. He took us around, and he didn’t even have a lifejacket! I mean, he just swam around like that. Woah. That, is seriously tiring. So he picked some sea cucumber up for us to look at it up close. Eww.. that was really gross. Like a withering mass of black uh, slime. But it hardens up when it leaves the water. We were such sua kus ie. Mountain tortoises, ie uninformed that we took pictures of it, like it’s some kind of precious gem. Heh. It was a great trip, actually. Snorkelling is fun fun fun!

So we went back to the resort, showered and walked around the island and took some photos. It was kind of boring actually. Firstly, after the excitement of the snorkelling trip, walking around didn’t seem much fun. Secondly, well, the walk was a little uninteresting. It’s not much fun. We took a few shots and went for dinner. Which was actually quite yummy. Then we went to the other resorts, that had more stuff, like beach sports and shops and discos. And we ended up at this little shop that sells beach clothes. Being girls, well, we couldn’t resist.

Sam and Yan were interested in this long beach wrap thing that you could tie in different ways to become a skirt or dress. Then I got interested too when I realised the short beach wraps were not so appealing. So the shop lady was teaching them how to wear the wrap when this guy came into the shop. Later we knew his name was Xing and whenever any of us said ‘That is horrid color!’ He’d say ‘No it’s pretty nice’ or something like that. Pretty friendly actually. So it got to the point where several other guys were ‘popping’ by, all whom we later knew were Zheng, Yu and Warren and Xing asked Yan if we wanted to go see Blue Sand, so Yan agreed on the behalf on all of us, and so… we got new friends :D

What a coincidence, huh. 4 guys and 4 girls :)

Blue sand beach

What, exactly, is blue sand, you ask? We got the little beach and the guys pointed out some neon blue specks of thingys on the sand bed. Apparently, it’s a kind of worm, and in the daylight, it’s transparent, at night, it glows. Yu, who was talking to me picked up one of these worm specks and gave it to me. It’s not creepy; actually, it’s so pretty! And it doesn’t move at all. Eh. Later, the rest of the girls drifted away; Yan was with Xing, Kimmy and Sam were somewhere, so I hung out with Yu and we stood at the beach and talked, with Yan and Xing somewhere behind. Oh, I forgot to add that the guys are Malaysians, studying in the University, and were at the resort working as it’s the hols.

Yu was very easy to talk to, and I actually had a lot of fun talking to him. In fact, I talked to him so much that night that I hardly talked to anyone else. We talked about school, Singapore and the holiday and stuff. In fact, we talked so much that night that I was itching to talk to some other guys, or the rest of my girlfriends. Whatever. So when Zheng came to talk to me, I was very happy, haha. Basically Zheng is nicknamed the ‘half naked guy’ as he didn’t have his shirt on. Heh. It was pretty funny actually, b/c he actually negotiated for us to get into this club, and he couldn’t go in b/c he didn’t have a shirt on. I didn’t really pay attention to him at first, but he later talked a little to me. Kind of nice, saw me rubbing my eyes and came over to ask me what’s wrong, and we bantered around here and there. :). But then later Yu came and talked to me, so Zheng sort of drifted off. Hmmphff. He went to talk to Sam. Heh. Who has a massive crush on him :P Wahahah. Actually he talked to her a lot too. Eh.

Yu asked for my number! Like, I didn’t even know him that well, and he was already asking me. So I hedged around with some stupid excuse, but he was kind of persistent. I didn’t give him my number in the end though. Because I’m a prude and a super conservative person. Yeah. He was like – reaches out to get my number, and I slapped his hand. Hahahah. You should have seen his face.

Hung out with the girls in the resort room. Talked a lot but basically we talked about Zheng the half naked. Hahahaha. And which part of him will be half naked later. *naughty, eh? And of course, teased Sam mercilessly about it, as she has a massive crush on him. By now, the lines were clearly there. Xing is mesmerised by Yan, Yu talks to me a lot and Sam is totally smitten by half naked Zheng. Heh :)


**Tuesday
More snorkelling! This morning, we went to the Redang Marine Park. And it is gorgeous! There were so many fishes about! And it was cameras all out again! But this time, the guide, Rame had the camera, so he took much better pictures. He actually swam close up to take the photos, so I think it will be gorgeous. Yup, yup. We had 2 guides today! Hahaha… Compass and Rame. We are special, no? There were actually people going about without guides, and here we have 2. Hoho… Anyway, Rame is so mean! I got off the speedboat and was walking towards shore when I suddenly realised that I couldn’t walk without being pushed back by the waves. I thought I was being washed back but Yan was walking just fine and was puzzled why I can’t seem to walk properly. Then I turn back and see that Rame was holding on to the back of my life jacket (it had a long strap thingy) and was laughing at me. Hmmphhff :). Horrible person. Haha.

Oh and I am totally smitten by this sexy gardener! I saw him a couple of times and he always smiled at me! And his eyes… god, when they look at me. It’s the smouldering kind of look :) Hee. It’s like, we always had this amazing eye contact, but he never talks to me! I later found out that we wasn’t the gardener but a Master Instructor for Diving. *Embarrassed. My bad. So that’s where the sexy body comes from. Heh.

So we took a break for lunch, and dressed up in tanning wear so that we could go tanning straight after lunch. Wore the sexy white beach wrap we bought the last night and my purple string bikini underneath :) Haha… tanned a little. The rays are pretty ok. What I couldn’t stand was the number of stares our group got from the guys. I mean, it’s not the nice stare thing. It’s the ‘I can’t believe she wore something like that!’ stare. Come on! It’s a beach, you losers, what did you expect me to wear? A long sleeved turtle neck? Stupid. Got a nice but slightly uneven tan. *sigh. (Eh, Sam should know why it’s uneven. Red skin-normal skin-brown skin *laughs)

Two more snorkelling. One was absolutely free!

We went for yet another snorkelling trip, this one at this Pulau Lima island. Lima means ‘5’ in Malay, isn’t it? It was exactly that. An island with 5 protruding, uh, mounts? It’s very pretty, and between mounts 2 and 3, the sea cuts through it when the tide is high, so it’s a gorgeous sight. We sat at the tip of the speedboat thingy. I swear, if you are a group of young girls travelling, you get a lot of attention! :) This time, we had 3 guides! Hahahah…Compass, Rame, and Blartt (Blood? I don’t know, that was how he pronounced it). Blartt took me around and showed me this soft coral thingy, the one where clown fishes swim around it? It stung me! *irritated. It hurts like hell. Whatever. It didn’t seem to sting him though. I don’t quite like this Blatt person. The guides were swimming back to the speedboat with the rest of the girls. Since Blartt was my guide, I had to hold on to his hand, and he lead me to a totally different direction! I was like, eh, they are going that way, and he was like ‘oh sorry, didn’t see’. What on earth, it’s freaking obvious that we were off course. *on guard.

Later we went back to our beach resort. I have to tell you about Mr. 18 year old uncle! He’s so funny! He’s a snorkelling guide and a Diver as well. He pinched Kimmy’s cheeks and went ‘so cute!’ and when we reached the resort, he proceeded to throw us off the speedboat. We were sitting at the starboard side of the speedboat, near the tip of the boat, and he just shoved us down! So evil! Hahaha.

Then we went for (yet) another snorkelling trip, but this was on our own accord and some of the other guides offered to take us. I’m irritated. This Blartt was there and he insisted on being my guide. What could I say? So he took my hand and swam around the island. And yet again, he swam in a different direction from the rest of the group! So being the eagle-eyed me (Hoho…) I stopped swimming and pointed out that super obvious fact to him and once again, he’s like ‘oh, sorry’. What a freaking idiot. *knows how to take care of herself. And I don’t want to come across sounding like a prude, but I don’t see why I can’t hold his hand in the normal way, but have to interlace my fingers with his. I mean, everyone was holding hands in the normal way. He also tried to grab my flippers and said that he will push me back to shore, what on earth? I said I’d swim myself.

Also, he stopped in the middle of the open sea, before reaching the beach and asked me to go to the disco with him, as he is working there. And to go see some shooting star thingy. By then, I was so annoyed with him that I just contemplated swimming back to shore myself. But I told him that we were meeting some other guys. That should shut him up. Hah. Even later, he offered to teach me diving as well, and I’m like I’m not interested. And I was looking around to look for help when I saw Yan and Compass at the beach and I ran to them. Haha… Compass was at least a more normal guide. Oh, Compass was the one who told me about the sexy gardener, I mean, the sexy dive instructor. *Mmmm… He’s so yummy. The dive instructor, I mean, haha.

Met the guys again

So after dinner, we went to meet the guys again. This time, we went to the disco at another resort. Was pretty fun. But Yu didn’t dare to talk to me, haha… at least according to Zheng (who wasn’t half naked today. Lol) Was sitting between Zheng and Yu, and most of the time, was talking to Zheng. Poor Yu, actually, but I preferred talking to Zheng b/c he didn’t ask me for my number every 3 seconds. Zheng. Is. So. Evil! He scooted over near me and was whispering like, ‘Yu is behaving himself tonight. He does not dare to talk to you tonight b/c he thinks you have a boyfriend’. I was in a mood, maybe because of the beer and I’m like, *laughs and look at him with eyebrows raised. ‘Why aren’t you scared of me then?’ And he’s like ‘I’m not the one going after you!’ *pouts. Hahahaha. Very cute. Perhaps that’s why I like talking to Zheng instead, harmless flirting is fun. Once the talk gets a little more serious, I back off like crazy. Of course, I’m not that horrible to flirt around with him when Sam is so crazy about him, was just playing around. Anyway, he says he has a ‘good feeling’ about Sam. :) Am so happy for my friends when something nice like that happens. *smile. He likes you, Sam. *hug. So glad you found someone like him. :)

So later we sat around at the beach area and I was feeling a little bored. Yu tried to talk to me but I guess I was feeling a little horrible at the way I treated him and the lies I told him. He found out about one of the lies I told him and he’s like ‘Why did you lie to me?’ In a very nice, normal way, mind you. And that’s what eats me the most. That’s he’s still so nice to me after the way I’ve treated him. So I told him to go find someone else to talk to b/c I’ll not be a good conversationalist tonight. I feel horrible. Anyway, Zheng came over and sat in front of me and we talked a little. The rest of the group were scattered in various other places. I think I told him some pretty uh, explicit things. But he’s very nice to talk to, as a friend. He told me some stuff about his relationships also. Hmmmm…

Then Xing and Yan came over and we played a little with the sand. *never grows up. Xing is so horrible! He blew sand at me! *hmmphhff! And kept his precious Yan away from the sand. Hahaha…so I blew sand back at Xing, and Yan blew sand at Zheng, who then proceeded to blow some more sand at her. So childish! It was one of the more light hearted moments of the night.

**Wednesday

Sam and I woke up early to watch the sunrise with the guys. So cliché huh. Haha… I was dreading it a little b/c it meant seeing Yu again, and uh, well, some other tensional thingys. The sunset was very ‘Webshots-ey’. It’s stunning. Better than the best sun rises I’ve seen in Singapore anyway. I think I was kind of quiet the whole time. Yu tried to talk to me, but I gave pretty much blasé responses. Xing talked to me too, as did Zheng. I think they are very nice guys, in the sense that when they sensed that I was lonely, they’d talk to me. Never did talk much to Xing, as he’s always with Yan, but think he’s quite decent. Zheng was nice too. We talked about fingernails! Lol. So inane. And Yu… what can I say? I’m very guilty and feel terrible at the way I treated him. He’s such a nice guy.

I left without saying goodbye to them. I think I can’t say it; it’s just weird for me.

So…

The long trip home

Basically the trip home was really boring, don’t really feel like talking about it. Am happy that I’m home in Singapore. Feel terrible though, as didn’t buy stuff for mum and dad. The parentals sponsored my expenses for the trip! But bought a T shirt for Alex, and some foodstuffs. So, yeah.

Smsed Maurice back b/c he smsed me when I was at Malaysia. *smiles. Err… ok.

Hey!!!

I’m back! From the gorgeous island of Redang. Was planning to write a recap sort of thing, and when I realised that it’s gonna take a long time to write everything down, I decided to write a short entry first. Got back on Wednesday night, with a tan in tow :D!!! Am happy. And guess who sent a really really sweet message!

*smiles

Anyway, I’m gonna talk about what happened today. Will post the Redang events a little later, when I finish writing it. Was on the phone the first thing in the morning with PS and talked about Redang, and then Ming called with a job offer at NUS, so zipped down to Clementi to have lunch with Ming and get the interview details. Anyway, Ming is going to SMU tomorrow morning for the interview and report! Good luck babe! I am scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. *excited. Wonder how it’s like.

So I went to the NUS Engineering Faculty to interview for the job and they took me and Ming on the spot! *Yay! I was so afraid that I could not find a job after Catholic High, but now… I’d say I’m quite lucky. Maurice also offered to inform me when they have a vacancy in Cat. High. *happy. Does it mean that he wants to see me again? Hahaha… am reading too much into a little message. But it’s sweet of him to think of me. But then again, he’s a nice guy, he’d probably do the same for everybody. But he was thinking of me, so I’m happy. (I used 3 ‘but’ in the last 3 sentences! English out of the window!)

Oh also, Sam called and asked if I wanted a job with Ascendas, something about being a travelling computer programme problem solver person :) Heh, I don’t know if I’m qualified, haha. Moreover, I already took the NUS job. But I love my friends! How they always look out for me and stuff.

It’s about 8 bucks a hour! *yay! This, is seriously great. Ok, so I would prefer immensely if I were to get a job offer back at Cat High, but eh, I count my blessings. And this job will take me till July, so basically, I’m covered. Thanks, Ming :) *hug. And we’ll both be working together! This is great! Maybe we can ogle at cute Engineering guys together eh? Haha…

So I’ll go and continue writing my Redang update, and post it together with a link to the pictures soon. Night!

Thursday, April 17, 2003

So tired, but I want to get in this bit before I go to sleep.

*Eh, My phone just switched itself off.

Interesting bit :) Was walking from CHS to the bus stop today after school when a couple of my students were behind me. I didn't really recognise them but I got my clue from what they were talking about.

Them Murmur
Me Smsing someone
Them in a loud voice I wonder when Mr. Maurice is coming back?'
Me *thinks* Eh? Didn't I just tell them in class just now?
Them I don't know when but I think Mr. Maurice is the most good looking teacher in school
Me *thinks* They are trying to imply something?
Them Yeah, he's not attached also
Me Glances behind Aha! They are from my class. *resists urge to giggle

What on earth?

*feels happy


Just zonked out from 4-6 pm. Sooo… tired. Anyway, I feel pretty sexy in what I’m wearing now… haha. Just got to say that. Conceited, vain… yeah whatever ;) Actually it’s only a pink tank top and floppy grey shorts, and messy just-get-out-of bed hair. Haha… ok.

Last day today.

I know. He’s perfect. And I want him

Last day at Catholic High today. Hmmm…what surprises me is the range of emotions I go through today. Man, I tell you, it’s mood swings through and through. When I got to CHS in the morning was hanging out with Xin and was telling her how I’m glad this is going to be over. I’m very tired, and it’s wearing me out. Of course I’m talking about a couple of the classes and also the Maurice situation. Sitting at his table with pictures of him and his stuff does not help much. To forget him, I must get far, far away. As I stood at the balcony area facing the parade ground, there was a sense of relief even.

(Btw, I’ve to say Xin is looking very pretty! I love her hair! And her complexion… let’s just say she looks very good even without makeup *jealous. Hahaha :))

Oh, forget to update the part about Maurice’s time-table. It’s indeed lost. Haha… hopefully he’d have committed the schedule to his memory. Or… well, too bad. I went to the right classes today, only because I have a good memory :) and I went around asking students if I had classes with them. Heh.

**First period

[[I can remember all of 5 students and all 5 were sitting right in front of me. English rep, Malay guy, Vincent, HelookslikehisnameisKelvin, and Terrence]]

My first class is one of my favourite English classes. Even though I’ve only seen them once. Maybe because some students actually talk to me, as a person than a teacher. (Teacher = not a person? Haha. You get what I mean). Got to know a couple of names today, heh, the beauty of nametags! Haha… But, eh, it’s the last day, so… no biggie anyway.

Weird. They are talking about Maurice. He goes to their homes?! *thinks. He’s welcome here anytime. Haha… Those. Lucky. Students!. :) Anyhoo, talked a little about SA and such. And I thought the front row guys were talking about me –

Me ‘Are you guys talking about me?’
Them ‘No…Don’t flatter youself! Wahahahah!’

*Christine is stuck between laughing and pouting.

I could have sworn they were talking about me. *shrug. Well! Whatever.

HelookslikehisnameisKelvin ‘Man, after A’s I should get a relief teaching job in an all girls school’ ROFL

Then nearing the end of class, they talked about Maurice. (My favourite topic, of course, hee) Asked me if I knew how old he is and stuff. I know it, actually; I have seen his IC number somewhere before. But of course I played silly, couldn’t let them know I’m infatuated, can I? Haha. Apparently, he’s xx years old. (I’m not gonna reveal) and one of them said that ’Both of you are about the same age’ To which I objected by saying ’No way! He’s so old!’. I’m a liar. I’m a liar. I’m a liar. He’s not that much older, but I’m so vehement about him being so much older! Why am I doing something like that? Then Vincent said something like ‘Girls like mature guys’. You know, he’s right.

*sighs. Ming thinks that they think I somehow related to him! Whee!

Anyway, I had to go, told them this is my last class with them and goodbye. I can’t actually remember if they said anything, because after Vincent said that mature men thingy, I lost track of everything else. I knew there was a chorus of ‘Byes’ and stuff. I was foggy headed. Heh.

Oh, I have to add that Terence has ‘font’ handwriting. It’s so cute! Like Calvin and Hobbes, according to HelookslikehisnameisKelvin

**Boring combined Humanities class

Blah. I so don’t like this class. They are so dead! I am talking all of the time, trying to fill the silence. I told them it’s my last day, and they are like *blank stare. Whatever.

**My favourite Combined Humanities class!

Woohoo! Am so happy whenever I had to come to this class. With the exception of a few assholes sitting at the back left side of the class, and the entire extreme right row, the rest of the class is so responsive! I love it. I love students like that! Bless them! Yay!

A couple more names Ian and Joshua. They are like, the best students ever! And The 5 guys at the front left side. They actually participate in the class. And I’m so appreciative of that, because it makes the class like a discussion and god knows I love heated discussions! Bless all of them! It was a fantastic lesson.

I went into class and went ‘I have good news, Mr. Maurice is coming back next week’ And someone, (I think it’s Ian?) went ‘How is that good news?’ (Amazing how I always remember these little bits of conversation huh? Heh…deviated from the lesson, b/c I was in the discussion with the couple of participative guys and totally forgot about the rest of the class. Heh. I would gladly continue to forget about the rest of the class and talk to the guys, but I felt that was unfair to the rest of them, so… *shrug. Got back to class.
Anyway, I love the way the Cat High boys have to greet teachers!

‘Goodbye Miss Chew’
‘Thank you Miss Chew’
‘God Bless You Miss Chew’

*smiles. I thought that was a joke at first, so I muttered, ‘Bless you guys too’ Haha…

I’m Blessed! Life is good! Haha… Anyway, the guys are v. nice. Said they would miss me Aww… Me too :)

**Break

Blah. Bored, started packing the stuff so it’s neat and all. Looked at the photos and felt a little sad that I’m leaving. Drank lots of mineral water. Eh.

**English lesson with the form class

It’s weird. My form class and I had more lessons with them, but I don’t feel quite as close with them as the other English class that I had this morning. Well! But they are very nice guys. A couple more names today from this class too! Andre, Andre’s twin (lol, couldn’t see the name tag), Kennedy (eh? Nice name) and Nelson.

They were getting their class T-shirts today, and there was a flurry of activity. Nice shirt, but not as nice as my secondary school’s. Heh. But it’s pretty ok. So mean! I wanted to look at it and Nelson and Kennedy refused to let me, unless I said please. Haha… horrible people. They were talking about my job and they were like, why did you take this job? And before I could answer, someone said something about good pay and slack job. Heh. Precisely! But they said I wasn’t Aggressive enough. Well! You can’t be nice, you can’t be fierce! What else do they want? Lol.

Anyway, class was pretty fun too. Slacking, mostly, but still.

Would love to write more, but this entry’s getting fricking long. And this is only the morning. I guess I want to write down everything that happened, lest I forget it.

Maybe will write more tomorrow.

Much love and hugs to all the students :) They are great guys (except a couple of asses but they are generally ok *smile)

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

Hello there! I see you are early today… step in, step in, and be careful not to trip on the pile of stuff that I’ve been collecting. Yes, those are Qoo bottles. I hear that their values would triple in 2 months time. Maybe you should invest in some bottles too.

Lol. Am a little crazy. Paulie crazy. Haha… What I just said would not make much sense to you guys huh? Oookk. Let’s get on.

[[Britney Spears’ ‘Born to make you happy’ is playing. ;) Am feeling a little corny-pop today. Heh. I really like that song! I don’t know why!]]

Simply Bow-ed over!

Nick smsed me again last night. That guy. I don’t even know who on earth he is. And I’m telling him that, I mean, that should be enough to make him say ‘Ok, I shan’t disturb you anymore. It’s plain you don’t remember me and it’s weird to talk to a total stranger’ But who knows, he asked if he could call me to talk. Wtf?!

Anyhoo.

[[What I wore today – Black, above knee length, skirt. Blue spaghetti top and a black jacket. Cool huh lol. And I wore my new glasses! Am looking sexy-intellectual! Haha]]

Today was pretty jumbled up. I should be feeling none too great, but several nice things happened too, so, eh, am feeling pretty cool. Reached school pretty early before Xin and was hanging out in the staff room. To be a relief teacher and not know anyone kind of sucks. I mean, they are very nice and friendly and I get a lot of smiles the couple of days I’ve been there, but you know, office jokes and stuff, I’m outta it.

Yean is nice, was asking around if anyone needed anything from the canteen, and she even came up to me, tapped me on the shoulder and asked if I needed anything. Adeline is the one I go to when I needed to ask anything. Bridget, sitting next to me smiles at me often. Denis is very funny, I always hear him before I see him. Maurice intro-ed me to Terence before, and he’s very funny. Have not seen him around, hmmm. And Edwin, yesterday. Didn’t talk much to him. Grace is really really nice, think she’s on close terms with Xin and Charmaine is too. Of course, there are other teachers whom I trade smiles with (heh, love that term. Trade smiles. :D) and it’s a great environment.

*First period

So today, first period totally sucked. Seriously. That was the combined humanities class I had on Monday. Seriously, I know it’s first period, raining and all, but the mood of the class is the pits, man. This smart alec, whom I’ve referred to on Monday is at his cynical mood again. Every time I asked a question, no one would answer and then he’d answer, and it’ll be a totally ridiculous and stupid answer. Like, grow up already! *mad. Ass. Still have another lesson with them tomorrow. Does my suffering never end? First period too, I think. *runs off to check.

Gaaahhh! I lost the schedule! It’s not so bad that I’ve lost it, but it’s Maurice’s copy! I took it off his table! Arrr! *wrings hands in despair. How on earth would I go to the classes tomorrow?

Am going to think about it later.

**Fourth period, second lesson.

Yay! My favourite combined humanities class! Woohoo! Of course, there are a few disgusting people here and there, but heh. Shall not give a damn about them as I love the rest of the class. Some of them there are really smart, there are 3 guys in front who always participated in the class. :) And of course, there is Ian and his friend. Heh. I’m using Ian’s name b/c it’s the only name I know. They are the vocal yet smart type, you know what I mean? Somewhat like LucasI really think that they will go far, as they are really smart and very likeable.

Oh, likeable… maybe I should revise that. Lol. I wrote ‘Read through the passage Z for Zachariah’ on the white board and Ian was like, ‘She wrote that down ‘cause she can’t pronounce it.’ Lol. That was actually true. What kind of name is Zachariah? If you type that in MS Word, it’ll have a squiggly red line below it. That was funny actually :).

There was this other guy, I thought I heard him say something vulgar when I told him to hurry up for class. Hum… not too sure. Whatever. He looks like Lorenzo, btw.

**Break!

I couldn’t find Xin, so I went to the canteen alone to buy mineral water. Was walking back to the staff room and smsing on the phone when suddenly, this guy walking towards me bowed. Bowed!. I mean, at CHS, the students are supposed to bow to teachers, but all of them do the ‘nod-your-head’ bow. This bow is The Bow. His entire upper body is parallel to the floor. Hee… So funny! It’s a little scary also, b/c this head was coming towards me. Haha. I didn’t know who that guy was! Heck, I couldn’t even see his face. But I saw who’s beside him who was laughing like mad. Ian, I think. Ah, that figures. Hoho… this was funny incident of the day.

**Last period!

Was the ‘guai’ class. Wasn’t very special or anything. Went in, told them that they had to do another comprehension, to which they groaned. Naturally. Haha… just gave out the stuff, bantered a little and sat down to read Macbeth that I nicked from Maurice’s table. Haha… apparently, I’m ‘very efficient’.

**Assembly
Heehee… the principal is very funny. There was this news incident about this Cat High guy who changed sex, and went around telling people he’s from St. Nick’s. So the principal was talking about CHS’s collaboration with St. Nick’s for some concert thingy, and was like ‘Stop salivating!’. He then went on to talk about how the guys should be proud of their school song, and should sing it loudly. So in the future, if they married a St. Nick’s girl, they can sing their school song louder than them. (Or sth like that). Then he was like, ‘You can marry a St. Nick’s girl, but you can never change loyalties!’, which was in reference to the news incident, of course. Haha…

Arrr…am tired. Guess who just messaged? Mmmm… Haha… Gotta go!

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

Oh, oh, I forgot! This guy from the class I love teaching went 'Miss Chew! You are so cute!' Haha... *Christine the cute.

Hi! Welcome in to another episode of ‘Diary of Christine in Catholic High’ Bet you are just dying to know what happened today. Harhar… Christine the conceited. Well! I have the perfect title for this entry. It’s

Me and Maurice have the same handwriting!

*Note 1 - Since I’m doing entries for this blog every afternoon for these couple of days, I’ll write some stuff about what happened last night too. Why afternoon, you ask. Heh. Because I have to go to bed early at night (I have to wake up at 5.15!) and most importantly, I knock off at 2 pm! Woohoo! Ok.

*Note 2 – I’m gonna refer to Maurice in this entire entry as Mr. Maurice, b/c I think his surname is kind of weird. In fact, his full name is very weird too, imo.

So last night was pretty tame. Oh oh… This guy called me. Said his name was Nicholas, and that we met last week. Wtf! I don’t even know who he is! And the weird thing is that he knows my name and number. Well! Whatever. Told him I’m going overseas tomorrow so he better not call me. Hahaha… I don’t know, he sounded exhausted. Like he’d just sprinted 20 kilometres. *shrug

**Today!

I had to go to Cat. High early because I had to take attendance! Yay! Sounds really cool. I never knew being a teacher was so cool! But then again, I’m a nerd deep down inside, so it does not surprise you eh? Ahahaha… But in the end I didn’t go down to the assembly place lah… Just stood upstairs on the balcony area and looked down. The reason is that if I had to go down to take attendance, it’ll be disastrous. My skirt, the one from Phuture London is a wrap around skirt and I just realised today that it flies open from any small gust of wind! Gahhh!

So I was standing there at the balcony and got the first compliment of the day :D. This teacher who was standing beside me was like, ‘You must be the sweetest teacher in the school’. *smiles. There was no sarcasm or anything. At least, I don’t think so. Haha. I think it alludes to my clothes and strappy heels. It’s very, um ‘ribbon-y’.

Then Xin was like ‘You ah, must be the prettiest teacher in the school’. Ahahahha! *smiles madly. And it’s only my second day there! Heh.

First class – Combined Humanities, but another class, different from the one yesterday. So I was waiting outside the class and I found out that the door was locked! Well! Then a group of students came and they were like ‘We have to wait for the class to come unlock the door. They are at PE’. And I was getting damn impatient and I went ‘Does Mr. Maurice get irritated and demand that the students come up immediately to open the door?’ This guy was like ‘No, he waits for them. Haha… relax’ Heh. Seems like Maurice is the easy going kind. Which reminds me! There was this ‘stress relieving’ tablets thingy on his table and someone wrote ‘This is good for stress relief. Especially for stress due to excessive happiness and to promote limp wrists (eh?)’ Hoho…

Finally, we got into class and I asked them if they have their textbooks and they were like ‘No, it’s really heavy to carry around’ Hmmpphh! Like I don’t have to carry it around. So I refuse to be daunted and went ‘Well! We are still gonna go through lit anyway!’ So I did the ‘Protagonist, Antagonist, Hero, Villian’ thingy with them. And since I have no transparencies and they have no textbooks, I had to resort to the white board. And then, as I was writing, this guy (Ian) went ‘You have the same handwriting as Mr. Maurice!

*Dances around for 5 minutes

See, I’m crazy. Ok, my (very witty, imo) comeback was that he had very nice handwriting then! Modest huh, hahaha… Then some guy was like ‘I know why!’ And suddenly a lot of people spoke up at the same time, so I never got to ask why. Hmmpphh. Anyway, this class was FUN! Everybody participated. Well, almost everybody. Wahhh! I love students like them, even when they ask me funny things like ‘If the protagonist is a villain, then does it make him an antagonist? Then if the antagonist is a hero then is he a protagonist? If the protagonist is a villain, then there is no antagonist, as the definition for villain is an antagonist who is cruel?’

Arrgghh! I had to spend lots of time telling them that being an antagonist is not necessarily a cruel person, just that they have a conflict with the protagonist … *Blah blah blah.

Yay! Am meeting this class again tmr! Woo hoo!

Then I met Maurice’s form class for English. It was okay, I guess. Nothing very interesting happened. Couple of guys in front that are quite vocal and stuff, but I had fun talking to them. Two of them looked like twins! Oh, when I first walked in, someone said ‘What’s she doing here?’ Ass. So rude! But it was an okay form class. I learnt that ‘Mr. Maurice is a slacker’ Hoho… won’t he be glad to know that. Gave the class early recess. Yay! This student (Kenneth, I think) gave his word that I won’t get into trouble for letting them go early. Harhar. Am being popular with the students. Hohoh…

*Break. Hung out in the staff lounge with Xin.

It’s back to boring English class in the ‘guai’ class. This time, I gave them 1 period to finish the comprehension, with the 2nd period for this transparency handout Maurice had on his table for me to go through with the class. Guess what? If you guess that Maurice had already gone through the handout with them, you guessed right. If you guess that I’m in trouble b/c I have one period that I had to fill up, you’re also right. STUPID MAURICE! Screwed me! (Not in that way of course. My crush on him is not that obsessive…hyuk hyuk.)

So… oh, so was in the class when some guys walked pass from recess and I heard someone shout ‘chio bu!’ Wahahah! Maybe I heard wrong. Maybe he was saying ‘that’s such a chio Book!’ ;)

*Contact time! Something like Civics. I had to go back to the form class and when I went in, twin 1 said ‘What is she doing here’! Argghhh! I’m the form teacher! I’m taking over Maurice’s classes. Therefore. What’s. His. Is. Mine! In terms of classes, of course. Anyway, contact time is slack time. So… talked to the twins (they really look alike! They are not really twins, of course) and some others. And that was the end of the day! I’m free to go! Woohoo!

*Compliment! ‘You have very nice hair’ Yay!

Oh, after school, this student came to look for me to sign some document. *wow. That’s so cool. Was eating lunch with Xin and some other teachers. Went to buy some fruit juice and this teacher about Maurice’s age said hello to me :) That’s Edwin, Maurice’s good friend. Haha… feeling special today.

Know what I like about sitting at Maurice’s desk, in spite of it’s messiness? The fact that he had photos of him and the class around the table! Wow. It’s like paradise.

*runs off to watch TV

Monday, April 14, 2003

Am home! Just took a shower. Yup, yup. So how was today, you ask? How was Catholic High? Spill! Heh. Ok. Here goes. Today’s entry title -

I get a kick out of students calling me Miss Chew

Woke up at 5.15 am today. 5.15 am!!! I hardly think I should be subjected to such torture. But still. Had to meet my friend, Xin, at 7 am, and the trip to Bishan is really, really long. Guess what. I was early. By 15 minutes! Me the always-late! Harhar… Xin is really nice. She’s the one who got me the job and gave my contact to you-know-who. Bless her. :D

So we got to Cat High at about 720, which as Maurice said, was a safe time to get there. Actually, I think it’s not quite safe… one teacher signed in at 630. Goodness. What an ass. Makes the rest of us look like bums. To reach CH by 630 I’d have to leave by 515, which means I have to wake up at 445. Gee.

So anyway, went to the staff room to get ready. And I got the biggest surprise of the day. It is Maurice’s table! A huge bouquet of red roses, and a card with my name!

Harhar!

Gotcha! You didn’t seriously believe that, did you? Heh. Maurice’s table. You know what? Before I started at CHS, Maurice was like, um, you’ll be sitting at my table, I will tidy it up a little. I didn’t actually see the table, though he pointed at the general direction. And I saw it today. Tidy up? I would dread to see the table in a messy condition. On the chair itself was a cushion. No, actually, it’s a squashed cushion b/c this huge plastic bag of stuff is above it. The table…Wait, did I say a table? Actually, there was no table. It’s just one huge mess of… um, well.. stuff. Got. Urge. To. Clean. Now, people who know me well will know that I have the messiest room in the world. This mess is nowhere near my room’s mess.

So anyway, I have no first period class and went to have breakfast with Xin. The café is actually EMPTY. It’s refreshing to see an empty canteen after 2 years in SA and where ppl hang out is predominantly the café. Had some Ribena (yum) and then went up to prepare the teaching stuff.

First class is combined humanities. So I waltz in with my literature stuff and you know the typical reaction. ‘Who is this? She looks unqualified’ Haha… or something like that. So I introduced myself (Miss Chew! I get a kick out of listening to it.) and guess what. Nobody had any literature stuff. None at all. Asses. Hah! I refused to let them win so I said, ‘Well, we’ll do social studies then. I have transparencies!’ Hah! I am so smart, I scare myself sometimes. Haha.. *Triumphant

Anyway, lets not talk about this social studies class. It totally sucks. Lets just say this smart alec finds it funny to disagree with anything I say, but have nothing to back up his disagreement. I actually went ‘You can disagree with me, BUT get your facts straight first.’ Like a bitch huh. And these 3 guys who finds it fun to irk and irritate me. (Oh, one of them looks like Jens from my 3 month course class. Heh.) I had them move and sit right in front of me. Haha. Oh btw, I think I screwed up Maurice’s schedule. Was supposed to do lit first. Arrrhh. Whatever. Oh, Jens-look-alike has taken to calling Maurice by his name. Why? B/c I accidentally referred to Maurice as Maurice. Uh. Ok. I am talking about it when I just said I didn’t want to talk about it.

Then was English class a.k.a It’s time for me to slack! Woohoo! Just shoved the comprehensions to them amid their protests and sat back and painted my nails. No. Actually I read the comprehension paper. Booorrriinnggg. This group of guys who sat in front were the more vocal ones. Asked me for extension and I was like ‘No, you’ll get me into trouble!’ And they were like, ‘We won’t tell anyone! You just tell Maurice that you brought the worksheets home!’ And I’m like *haughty ‘I have moral standards!’ And they were like ‘Moral standards? Who needs it?’

**Funny overheard thing**
A - ‘Hey staple this for me!’
B - ‘ Modern dogs are getting demanding’

ROFL :D

So as I was leaving, this guy in the front row was like ‘Miss Chew! Where’s Mr. Chew?’

Me - ‘I have not found him’

That would have been a pretty good comeback except that (1) My future husband would probably not take my surname. (2) They were talking about a real Mr. Chew. I think. Bleah.

*Break. Went back to staff room. *yay! An sms from SL!* All of a sudden the telephone intercom thingy blared ‘Christine! Christine Chew! Sitting at Maurice’s table! I’m looking for Christine Chew! I was terrified. So I pretended I didn’t hear it until someone is the office called for me. So… embarrassing. It was some paperwork thingy. When I came back, was too late to go for lunch with Xin so I sat at the table. And. Cleaned. Up.

Me. Whose home table is a mess. Tidying up Maurice’s table. Weird. Apparently, I am given liberty to throw all his stuff away. Lol *thanks Mrs. Whoeveryouare! And that his table has been that messy since the beginning of time. Heh. Apparently too, he is a super popular teacher. I swear, the number of gifts there… Haha. And the number of photos! Most of which are school photos. And soft toys! 2 of them! *shudder. Guys + soft toys = scary. And I realised that there was this huge cardboard box of um, things on the floor. He is the only teacher who has it. What on earth? Surely he’s not that starved of space! I cleared up the area pretty nicely, even if I do say so myself. What I did not touch was this suspicious looking pair of running shoes. Heh. It’s white. And blue.

The next and last class of the day next. Hum.. Nothing interesting. It’s a ‘guai’ class. Only funny moment –
Me – ‘Your teacher is not here…’
Student – ‘Maybe he has SARS and is quarantined’

Haha…

Went back to class after that and hung out, reading this survivor I dug of the debris (Metaphor! Woohoo!) It’s a book. A Bad Place by Dean Koontz. Was pretty nice. Clancy-like. Actually I’ve never read Clancy but still. Anyhow, I stole it!!! Haha. No. I borrowed it home. Hee.

Blah… so many stuff I didn’t add in. But this entry is getting too long huh. Haha. Shall see tmr. Yawn. Off to have a nap.
A little update on yesterday :)

Went shopping with Sam and to plan some Redand thingy. Went to Phuture London. They have a sale! Woohoo! Anyway, bought this boring beige knee length skirt. And a sexy little pink tube top that has a lace up back! So I can't wear a bra then. Hmmm. a tube perhaps. So sexy. Mum didn't say anything, in fact, she was pretty amused.

And I bought 4 CDs! 4!!! 4!!! 2 from Gramaphone and 2 from HMV. From gramaphone - All Saints All Hits CD. Love them. And the other is a used Dangerous Minds OST. I was a little reluctant to buy a used thingy. But, eh, whatever. From HMV, bought a Grease VCD and a Bridget Jones Diary VCD.

Then bought some beads to make a necklace and a bracelet! Hoho...Sam's making it. I have no idea how she's gonna do it. Lucky to have a friend who's talented in making crafts, heh :)

Saturday, April 12, 2003

I hate mini golf

Played mini golf with Alex just now. I hate mini golf. I hate mini golf. I hate mini golf! I can’t believe I lost to Alex! Me, who read up on all the golf stuff, read golf magazines and learned about birdies, pars, eagles, bogeys, double bogeys and all those useless info. And I lost to him. Lucky ass. Hmmph.

- Miss IloveGolfOnlyBecauseOfSergioGarcia.

Ohh.. phone call

Was Ben. Heh, messaged him last night and asked if he was free. Called me only today! Bah. Totally forgot that he was in camp. Anyway, realised that he was busy on Fridays and stuff. Said he was too tired to go to Beach Road to buy the army stuff. Hum. What then? Maybe he is hinting for me to tell my uncle (he has a shop there) to deliver it to his home.

Hmm. Bored. Maybe will go make some desert for the family. Something nice. Like a strawberry cheesecake or something. *perks up. Maybe will go and buy a fancy desert book and learn to make more elaborate deserts!

Most likely will not, to be honest.
Er... A totally meaningless entry

You know when you get this weird feeling? Of something? Of something happening that, although you can't confirm it's true, but you feel it's real?

Yeah, I'm feeling that now. How weird. How strange. Gee. I'm speaking. In. Short. sentences.

Anyhow, am being very implicit and feeling quite stupid. Whatever.

Don't give me no more organ lessons!
Which roughly translates to 'Give me more organ lessons! That is, if you are speaking normal english

Mrs. Janet is adding more organ lessons for me! Now it's twice every week. Bah! The once a week routine was enough to kill me (I don't practice at all) and now twice? Twice? Ahhahaha... well actually I'm fine with it, am enjoying the music piece I'm working on now - Copacabana. Very Samba, like those Brazilian dances, heh. Too bad I can't dance and play that piece of music simultaneously. Lol. The examiner would be tres impressed! I will the the first girl in Guildhall history to dance and perform a organ piece! Woohoo!

Eh. Does that mean my organ fees are also doubled? 500 bucks per month! 500 bucks! *faint

Friday, April 11, 2003

Decisions, more decisions and a friend

Yawn… went to organ class in the afternoon. Practising really hard for the organ exam now. It’s sometime in May-June period. Hee.. wish me luck guys! It’s grade 8, the highest and toughest one. *bows. And the most stressful one too. I had to do 4 pieces in 7 months! God, 1 piece takes 1-2 months to perfect. Moreover, 2 of these 4 pieces of music I had to write myself. Ok, maybe not write, but I had to arrange them. This last piece is a medley, an 80’s retro medley :) *corny-ness alert!* Songs include – ‘Kokomo’, ‘Karma Karmeleon’ and ‘Heaven is a place on earth’ -->PS’ favourite song! Haha. It sounds fantastic. Thanks to my wonderful arrangement… and a lot of help from Mrs. Janet Eng. *Hug

Then went to the tour agency to finalise the tour details for the Redang trip. I didn’t really want to go to KL in the first place. I guess I just didn’t want to leave Singapore for such a long period of time, and also, b/c I am expecting a call. Several calls, in fact. So… coupled with the SARS thing, I guess that just added to a disincentive for me to go. Unfortch, Kimmy, Sam and Yan were quite keen on going to KL. I was actually pretty ok with going back from Redang myself by the express bus, and they continue their trip to KL, but Kimmy was quite resolute in her stand that none of us should leave alone as it’s unsafe. In the end, Sam offered to accompany me back from Redang to Singapore. It’s a very nice gesture, Sam, and I’ll like to let you know I appreciate that very much. You really came through as a friend :) Sorry for spoiling your trip though.

Happy Birthday!

To my dearest Mum! :) With much love and hugs.
Mums are wonderful, aren’t they. My mother and I may not have the greatest mother and daughter relationship in the world but I love her to bits. She’s the kind of mother I should grow up to be. Heh.
Just ate the yummy strawberry and peaches cake from Begawan Solo. Yummy. *loves strawberries. Maybe should have bought the Strawberry cake from BreadTalk? Sinfully delicious. Hee.

Oh, also, happy birthday to Amir. :) Have a great one.

Yawn, should go to sleep now. Organ class in the morning at 9.30 am tomorrow. Hmmphh. My teacher is a slave driver. Haha. Wait, should not use the term ‘slave driver’ as will connote that I’m a slave? Ah well, it’s just a figure of speech. Whatever. Am tired. Good night, yall!
Sergio Garcia es muy mono. Pienso que él es el golfista más bueno que mira en el mundo. El es español también. Spainards se supone ser apasionado y llameante. El romántico, orgulloso, intenso y repleto de la vida. Todas las calidades que busco en un hombre. Para Sergio, yo aprenderé a hablar el español. ¡La espera, yo hablo el español ahora!

Haha! This is fun, althought the spanish bit is a little shoddy. This was what I was trying to say :) I used simple english language.

Sergio Garcia is very cute. I think he is the most good looking golfer in the world. He's spanish too. Spainards are supposed to be passionate and fiery. Romantic, proud, intense and full of life. All the qualities I'm looking for in a man.
For Sergio, I am going to learn to speak Spanish. Wait, I am speaking Spanish now!


*giggles

Thursday, April 10, 2003

SMU thinks it's funny to scare the hell out of prospective students. I just logged on to check my application status. Guess what? Apparently, they have not received my supporting documents nor application fee. What on earth?! I sent it one freaking week ago! I had to refresh several times before they decide that I've already sent it and all is good.

Management school eh? When they can't even manage my application status. Heh.

*Sigh*

Isn't Endless Love one of the most beautiful songs ever recorded? I think I'm in love. With that song. And Lionel Ritchie, who, although is old, is still pretty yummy. Don't listen to the Mariah Carey version, it's rubbish. Listen to the Lionel Ritchie and Diana Ross one. Beautiful.

Oh oh, and this is one gorgeous man. Simon Panek. Chief of Operations of PINF, he stepped down from Director. Intensity and leadership in a man is such a lethal combination.

Dang, can't find a good photo. Make do with this :) For a really good pic, check out RD March 2003 issue. :)



An article on Mr. Panek. Oh, he's Czech.

Ack! Was surfing around for information on him when I got his email address! Wow.

Am I really that stubborn? I don't like to think so.
I'm not stubborn! I refuse to change my mind! I am not stubborn!I don't care what you say! Hmmphh!

thoughtful

I came to realize that in secondary school I’m always the ‘best friend of the popular one’. Ok, maybe in the CCAs. For fun, I’ve been looking at some polls, and I realized that all the babes in my clique are really popular, and I’m not as popular as them. Heh. I mean, I’m in the popular clique, but I’m always the ‘in the popular clique’ and not ‘the popular one’. Ok, I’m not unpopular or what, but if you rank us like actresses, I’m definitely not the most glamorous one out there. But it helps that my clique accepts me for who I am, although it sometimes feel as though it’s their popularity that is rubbing off me. Left on my own, I don’t think that many people would be rushing up to talk to me.

Talking about old times, I got to say that my clique is pretty hot :). 4 of us babes and we are not bad looking too.. haha. Those were happy times, sec 2-3. The 4 of us cramming for exams in the CCA room, with the other guys who like to hang out with us, of course, they are the more popular ones too, hee. There was no backstabbing, or talking bad behind backs or any animosity. We will sneak off during reading period to cram for exams ;) , go crazy when we have to plan for parties and go to parties, choreograph dances together (Butterfly! OMG! It was hilarious, we learnt that dance in 2 days. We tried the para-dance thing, but abandoned it b/c we looked gross doing that. And also b/c the guys look gross doing para.) Ping and Wen was teaching Jing and I the dance steps. Of course, we didn’t get it, and we used chalk to make marks on the floor, you know, like those dance steps thingy. Hee, and then we will refuse to clean up, b/c there are a hell lot of marks.

Oh, oh. This really crazy one is still in my mind. Wen was saying how if you stared at a guy’s crotch area for a long time, they’ll have an erection. We were sitting in front of this guy (M. I’m not gonna reveal his name, b/c he’s a friend of mine and it’s embarrassing! Lucky no one knew this, he was the object of lust amongst many girls haha.) and the three of us tried it out. Haha… Nothing happened, actually. Heehee.

And how we used to sit around and bitch about people we hate.

And how we will go back, after we left secondary school, and it’s like, people will be crowding around the 4 of us. Heh.. Homecoming.

I don’t mind being the most quiet of the group, actually. What with 3 other extremely extroverted people, I can afford to be less crazy. Haha. Just a thought. I miss those days :)

Wednesday, April 09, 2003

20 minute glasses

Went to make new glasses today. Am a little excited actually, because ever since seeing him wear glasses, am tempted to wear glasses like his, and not wear contacts. Mauri…

Anyhow, I am not talking about him here, am I? I’m not talking about him ever. Hmmph.

So went to this place in Jurong, this optician mum knew. Heh. Discounts. Hoho.. Guess what, guess what? My degree stayed about the same. Yay! *Dances* Not bad huh. I was a little scared a few years back b/c it kept increasing steadily, but I guess it’s reaching some sort of equilibrium now. If there is equilibrium for that, I mean. Hmm. (This doesn’t sound good. My life is so boring, I get excited by my glasses.)

Had a hard time choosing frames. My last pair of glasses (which is made back in sec 4, in case you didn’t know. You don’t know, of course) was a frameless affair. Kind of nerdy looking, imo. Makes me look as though I’ve been wearing glasses all the time, if you get what I mean. I want a pair of glasses that make me look intellectual (Ehem, I am, of course, intellectual. Just that a pair of glasses enhance that image). You know, as if I wear glasses only when I’m studying.

Wait. I don’t make sense.

Anyhoo.

I got this tiny frame thingy. Rectangular. Blue black. Hee.. Makes me look kind of smart.. (not that I’m not smart, just enhances this image. I have to keep stressing that.) I like it! I love it! Woohoo!

See how boring my life is? I get excited by glasses. Glasses!

Oh oh.. back to my title topic. Amazing how I always forget what I wanted to say. You remember this advert, where they go Glasses in 1 hour!? This shop in Takashimaya?

It’s no big deal, my friends. I got my glasses in about 20 minutes. Hah! What’s the big deal about 1 hour glasses, when you got 20 minute glasses? It’s like,
‘Hi, I’m here to make glasses’
‘Good, your degree is 200. Come back in 20 minutes or less!
Turns to camera and grins. ‘Yes! Right here in XX Optical, we custom make your glasses in 20 minutes or less! It’s that simple!’

Hoho…

Will go wear glasses now. Yay!
Note - No offence to anyone, kiddos.

I was just thinking about this ‘Boycott American Brands’ thingy that Sam was talking about.

It’s just ironic. They are passing this message to boycott American brands by the Internet, right? As Al Gore doesn’t let us forget, he invented the Internet. It meant that he was the one who came up with the idea/concept, of course. And the Internet thingy (whatever it is) is probably developed by some American.

Moreover, you need a computer to log on to the Internet, right? Your computer brand could be an American one anyway. Dell, HP…

See the irony? You are using an American product to spread the message. Even if you weren’t using an American computer, you are using the Internet, which is developed in where else? America. Using an American development to spread the message to boycott American goods.

It is funny.
If I only had one advice to dispense for the future, excessive sun block won’t be it

Went swimming again today. Hmmph. No difference was visible on my shoulders. I know, I know. I went swimming once this recent months. I shouldn’t expect results in one session. Oookkk.

Anyway, the lifeguard is scaring the hell out of me! I was having some trouble with the card-scanning device thingy, so I was stuck at the turnstile. Was looking for dad or bro for help when this guy with a straw hat and a white (I mean really white) face came to assist me. I nearly screamed. He’s so creepy! His face is white, white from some sun block lotion, no doubt, but it’s still horrible. And worse, he had red lips and was wearing this dark glasses thingy. And straw hat.

Creepy.

As bro said, he looks like those psychos that stalk at night. And hold a day job as a lifeguard.

Gaahhh!

Monday, April 07, 2003

Stranded

No reason for this entry title. I just like that word. It's the title of Jennifer Paige's song, btw, 'Stranded'

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea
I wanna be with you
If you wanna be with me
Crashing like a tidal wave
I don't want to be
Stranded
So baby come back to me


Which is also my current banner. She's pretty, isn't she? Jennifer Paige, I mean.

Some silly show is on TV right now. 'Eating Crossroads', if I translate it directly from Chinese. Some celebrities team up with the hosts and go on this eating competition. Normally, I like this show a lot. It's wacky and funny. But today it just.. well, disgusts me. I mean, if you were a celebrity, why would you do something so stupid? They have corny jokes, make a fool of the celebrities and generally makes an ass of the celebrities. I'm talking about the host hiting the ceebrities on the head, insulting them and sometimes both celebrity and host make complete fools of themselves.

If I were a celebrity, I would absolutely not allow anybody to do that to me. I won't allow myslef to go on that kind of show anyway.

Heh. I sound like a snobbish diva already, and I'm not even famous. Haha.

Seriously, I mean. If I'm a celebrity, I won't wear anything I don't like. Think Lil Kim. Think J-Ho. Think Christina Arguilera. *Shudder.

Am going to come up with a list of things I will nort do if I'm a celebrity. Yay!


*runs away
Bored

I'm so bored!!! Without a job now, b/c school's being closed. I'm frankly irritated. I want to go out. All the friends are working. Or not in the 'going out mood'. *grouse

I am so bored!!!

Sunday, April 06, 2003

Swimming!

Oh oh... Just came home from swimming at the club. Heh. There were about 4 other people there. Can't see if the other 2 guys were cute cause am not wearing my contacts. It's spoiled. *hmmphh. But he has a pretty nice figure though. (See, I'm so not hung up over you-know-who. Am very angry about you-know-who. I'm not going to say his name. Not going to mention him.)

So I was in the changing room after the swim and I saw myself in the mirror. And got the shock of my life. You mean I look so horrible in my swimsuit? Ohmigosh! I mean, I have the thinnest shoulders of anyone I know, and my body is so unproportionate! God! This swimsuit does not flatter skinny shoulders. It's halter neck... Sigh.. I hate my shoulders.

Hmmphh. I am angry

Forget it. I'm never ever gonna call, sms, think or even talk about him anymore.

Stupid guy. Can't say I didn't give him any chance. Like I said, if he wanted me, he could have got me. There were plenty of chances! (Ok,ok. I know some of you didn't need to hear the 'if he wanted me, he could have got me' part. But that's true, he probably could get anything he wanted. Heh)

I hate being unsure.

Saturday, April 05, 2003

Heh... Silly Clarence.

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:08 PM mrs christine chew ... how are you

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:12 PM hey Mr. Clarence, I'm fine. What's up with that politeness? lol

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:13 PM why you dun like ah aunty

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:16 PM CLARENCE

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:16 PM I'm not gonna talk to you

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:16 PM come on sugar mama ... i was just kidding

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:17 PM bleah.

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:17 PM i know, uncle clare

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:19 PM hmmm im born later .... if i am uncle .... you must be grandma christine

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:19 PM is this pick on christine day?

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:19 PM wrong, this is pick on christine night

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:20 PM this is 'clarence is feeling sarcastic' night

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:22 PM ok ok i apologize. what are you up to these days?

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:23 PM nah, no need to apologise. it was funny

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:23 PM me? I'm going to teach :-)

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:24 PM balls to you

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:25 PM if you are gonna speak like that i'm not gonna speak to you

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:27 PM i dun mean anything negative

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:27 PM really

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:27 PM im just trying to say things like congratulations and good for you

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:27 PM Oh... right.

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:28 PM okok, shan't give you a hard time

:+*christi 4/04/03 11:28 PM am in a cheery mood now

SATYRICON 4/04/03 11:28 PM question is : can YOU give me a hard time ??

Nice to talk to him, have not talked to many of the secondary school guys for a long time. Haha... Oh he sent me some army photos. Hehe.. Shall post them up if I have time.. heh.
Haha... Just read the Jack Handey book 'Deeper Thoughts'

If I was executed by injections, I'd clean up my cell real neat. Then, when they came to get me, I'd say, "Injections? I thought you said 'inspection'" They'd probably feel real bad, and maybe I could get out of it

Dad always thought laughter was the best medicine, which I guess was why several of us died of tuberculosis

Lol
Plot against me

MOE has just decided to extent the school closure period. What was initially a 2½ weeks teaching thingy is now 1 week.

Arrghh.

It’s a plot against me, I tell you.

And he hasn’t called or anything.

*pouts*
Shopping Therapy

Hee, it works.

Went out with Sam to Orchard today. Was looking for Jack Handey books that is only available in Library@Orchard. Anyway, went on to buy some stuff.

Bought this necklace at PS when we didn’t even want to buy anything when we first walked in there. Jo’s Craft. I really like Jo’s Craft b/c their after sales service is really good. I broke my bracelet twice and they repaired it for me FOC. Anyway, what we bought was this pearl and crystal necklace. Which is really pretty. We got different colours, of course. The salesperson said I was fairer (hee…) and had pink undertone (it sounds nice, but I found it hard to believe. Me, pink undertones?) so I should buy this greyish white pearl one. Sam had different colouring, so she should buy this darker coloured pearl. Her necklace looks really pretty on her. Hmmph. That was a really good sales person, btw. Got an eye for colouring and very good sales pitch.

*Plugs for Jo’s Craft (PS and Jurong Point)*

Haha…

Friday, April 04, 2003

Hee. I'm so corny. I just downloaded 'Let's groove tonight' by Earth Wind and Fire. Feeling disco-ey. Heh.

Look at the lyrics -

Let this groove, get you to move,
it's alright, alright
let this groove, set in your shoes,
stand up, alright


Disco, baby!
These are sad and trying times.
Not going to be a very cheery entry, I’m afraid. Am feeling quite miserable
[[Weird how these songs keep reflecting my mood these days. Iris by Goo Goo Dolls is playing now. If you know that song, you know how sad this song can make you feel.]]

Do you ever get the feeling that bad incidents like to come all at once? It never rains but it pours? (Cliché, cliché. I know).

Suddenly everything decides to strike. War, SARS, people going crazy and blowing themselves up. And then there are personal problems as well. I’m going to be honest here. I don’t give a damn about what’s going on in the world right now. Me. That’s what important. If you don’t love yourself, nobody is going to.

God.

I’ll just say it.

I’m feeling unloved. I mean, I have great friends and family members and everything. I have fun when I go out. The parentals are supportive and bro is a great buddy. On the surface, everything is fine. Great. Fantastic. But it does not seem enough. I covet more. Avaricious? Everybody wants that little something more; be honest.

‘That is what we do. That is what people do. They stay alive for each other.’ Clarissa Vaughn.

It’s a quote from The Hours. I always had something about movie lines.


Back to the quote from The Hours. I think that is one of the ways you love somebody. You stay alive for each other. Of course, there are many other ways love is expressed, but currently, this is the reason for me.

I’m going to say this very simply.

You stay alive for the person you love. You wake up each morning feeling happy and exhilarated because you are going to spend time him. You want to do something special each day for him. You want him to be happy. The reason you are staying alive is because he loves you back the same way you love him.

[[Change of songs. Current song is Once in a blue moon by Sydney Forest. Another one of those sad, wistful songs.]]

And I am not feeling this. I do not wake up early in the morning and get all happy and exhilarated. There is no ‘him’ right now. There is a dream of this ‘him’, but he remains a dream. He is not with me yet.

I’m a ray of sunshine today :)

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

I feel as though I’m back at school.
[[Another funny appropriate song – Busted ‘What I go to school for’. Appropriate, no?]]

Not working today (Yay! Yay!) So am bumming around right now. Looked at the pile of paper Maurice passed to me so I thought why not? Strangely enough, I felt compelled to make notes beside the points he wrote down. He really has very nice handwriting. It’s not normal, is that? Is that? There’s something uncommon about a guy who looks sporty and built suddenly take out a pen and write beautifully. His handwriting looks like mine, in fact.

I digress. Back to topic, I feel as though I’m back in school as I read the text and jotted down notes. Hmm. Post JC syndrome maybe?

I’m so excited! I can’t wait!
You are irritatingly perfect
[[Life in Mono is playing in the background now as I type my sad thoughts. Appropriate, not?]]

Maybe he does not like girls in pink spaghetti tops and ¾ pants.

I don’t get it! Not at all, you know.

It’s probably obvious by now that I think Maurice is a total hottie.

Arrrggghhhh.

Check ring on any finger – no
Check signs of being married/engaged/attached/infatuated – I should hope not.

I met him again on Tuesday. Tried my hardest to look nonchalant, practiced the ‘don’t-give-a-damn’ look and wore clothes so casual it looks I just rolled out of bed with the messy hair and all. I figured that would be my element. What with the ‘you rock the messy hair and crisp white sheets’ kind of languid sexy. You’d never imagine that messy hair take a long time to achieve. Anyhoo, I have naturally messy hair, so it’s not that hard, but sane looking messy hair is hard.

He actually smsed me and said he’s be a little late, and can I meet him at 1130 instead? So being the typical me, I was running late and I even took a cab there to make sure I wasn’t too late. The things I do. I got there, went into the staff room. No one at all. Turned and looked towards another walk way. There he is. He didn’t seem to recognise me. Called out to me when he got nearer. Did I mention how much I like it when he called my name? Did I mention what a sexy voice he’s got? Anyhow, he called me.

He’s wearing glasses. He wasn’t wearing glasses the last time. (Did I say how much I dig guys in glasses?). We were sitting at the staff lounge place, and he went through the notes with me. Hah! 13 pages. I was hoping he takes a long time to get through it. Kicks into gear - I tried the ‘look at him unflinchingly’ thingy. I tried the ‘look and look away’ thingy. I tried the ‘look with a smile playing on my face’ thingy.

He smiled; he didn’t look away. But then that was it. Not that I was expecting him to wink or leer or something. (Eww…) I mean, he’s a nice guy all round, so it’s normal for him to smile and have eye contact or something.

*sad*

Oh. I hope he’s stop doing something like this. It totally renders me speechless. He was perspiring a little and was doing the ‘fan yourself with your t shirt’ kind of action. Then looks up and smiles and said ‘I’m sorry, it’s kind of hot’.

I agree. It’s kind of hot. Probably in another context but still.

Arrrhhhh!

Stupid and oblivious. That’s what guys are.

I’m off to eat some cheese. Whine and cheese. Wine and cheese. Get it? No? My bad.

*edited to add –

You know what really really gets to me? It’s the fact he typed ‘have a nice day’ at the end of one of his smses yesterday. I was having dinner at Stix when the message came. I read it, and nearly choked. HAVE A NICE DAY! What on earth! You don’t normally say that. It’s so polite. It’s so off-ish. God! I’m making a big fuss over this but I don’t care. Hmmph. I would have loved to sms back ‘Have a nice Life’ But I didn’t, of course. Hmmmpphh.

Tuesday, April 01, 2003

As per request!

This is so not me.. haha but still! You know who you are!

Felt quite good today, got compliments about my clothes from my colleague, who said I looked 'stylish' and that I look like a HongKong pop star or similar. *smiles* Coming from her, it's a huge compliment. She has impreccable dress sense and she's really really pretty. Ahh.. feel ready to take on the world right now! ;)

Feeling quite perky now that have coffee. Was quite tired initially when meeting PS and MM for lunch. But was not so tired after while. They said I looked dazed. Anyway, I like my new skirt! PS, I have to exchange the skirt with you sometime! I want to try the sea green one, and you have to try my pink one! I think we both look really great in this skirt. Hmmm.. PS and I have good taste. Lol (It means Laughing out loud, if you didn't know :))

PS and MM - I'm still saving all his smses. You know who he is ;) Very goodlooking. Will try to get the picture and show it to you all sometime. Don't know why. He's very relaxed and stuff when I have my hair in a ponytail, but when I let my hair down, he clams up and act all stiff. What's with him? How can I seduce him? lol



*This post is edited. The first draft was pretty shoddy. Well. I had all of 5 hours of sleep. Got home at 1.30, slept at 2. Woke up at 7. Dang. I hate not being able to sleep in

About a movie

Went out with some of them (Pearly, Lucas, Aaron, Kenneth and Jocelyn) yesterday to um... celebrate/console Aaron and Kenneth's entry into the army. (Do you say entry? sounds weird). Went to Stix at Raffles City. Which was pretty good. It seemed different though, from the last time I went there. The last time being at IMM. Different menu, according to Lucas. Lucas is already out. (From the 3 month thingy, just in case you thought he was out of the funny farm or something). How time flies. It didn't seem too long ago when he had to go into NS. Aaron and Kenneth are going in this week. Actually am not very sure. This friday?

Anyhow, dinner was pretty ok. Aaron and Kenneth were pretty drunk (amazingly at that hour) and we had some nice wine.

Went to watch 'The Hours' at Marina after having dinner. I actually was quite tempted to watch 'May', which is some psycho show. Ah well. I was stumped about the movie though. I know the basics of the storyline - Virginia Woolf (Kidman) writes the book, Laura Brown (Moore) reads the book and Clarissa (Streep) lives the novel. What I didn't get was the lesbian aspect of the movie. I mean, Jocelyn said there are many kissing scenes cut out, so basically the homophobic aspect of the movie didn't get me. What I got was the 'women are sick and tired of the kind of lives they are living' aspect. I thought Aaron did a pretty good job of explaining the movie though.

Oh, I can't wear Reeok sports shoes as well as Addidas sports shoes. They make me fall. Stupid no friction shoes. I'm not gonna to elaborate anything on this b/c it makes me look stupid. Haha. Actually, this is not going to help, b/c the people who are there already saw how stupid it was. Oh well, you win some you lose some.


Just came back from Catholic High after getting the rest of the teaching stuff from Maurice. (Anyway, I still don’t know his last name. How am I going to tell his students that he’s going for re-service? ‘Uh, Maurice/Mr. Something/Your regularly scheduled teacher is gone for a couple of weeks?’

Anyway, social studies look pretty much okay, a combination of economics, geography and history and what not. His handwriting btw, is surprisingly neat for a guy’s. In fact, it looks somewhat like my handwriting on good days. He further highlighted on some other students I have to look out for. I totally forgot that there are so many students in a secondary school class. Ah well.

Got to get reading some of the stuff he wrote down.