Freaky event of the day.

A little early in the day for the freakiest thing to happen, but nothing can beat this.

The home phone just rang and I picked it up. Then some operator voice came on and said something to this effect ‘Hi this is Singtel fixed line SMS, you have one new message. To listen, press 1’ Of course, I was curious, I mean. What the hell is this Singtel fixed line SMS thing? And if it was SMS, why do I have to ‘listen to it’? It would be a voice message right? I didn’t even dial a number, what sort of freaky program allows the operator machine thingy to callme?

So I pressed 1. And on came this voice. I can’t say what kind of voice it is other than it was the Hollywood Game voice. It’s some silly game that Pei Shan and I used to play. You type in a conversation and the characters of the game will speak what you have typed down. That sort of voice. Mechanized. And the message was something like ‘Hi, I have been conversing …’ I was too freaked to listen to the rest of the message as it sounds very scary.

You know, come to think of it, they did say what number left the message and the number was something like ’98…’ I didn’t catch the rest. Dang. And I couldn’t see which number called, as my caller ID has gone totally bonkers.

That’s so weird.

Oooh, inspired by my office computer desktop programme - the Webshots, I d/l-ed it to my home computer. (Amir, remember the one I sent you? The forest and trees one) My home pc wall paper is now a delicious picture of the Ala Moana Beach Park, Honolulu. *Bliss*.

The Maldives one is gorgeous too. That's where I want to get married someday.

It’s HIM!

God, it’s him! I’m talking about this guy who caught my attention a while back when I first started working at this office building. (That guy whom I was so preoccupied with; I didn’t notice X) I mean, I see him a couple of times here and there, but not too often. So after a long spell of not seeing him, I saw him again yesterday! He is getting more and more delicious by the week.

The first time I saw him, I was talking to Felicia on the phone outside my office and I saw him walk past. He looked at me curiously, like I’m doing a very unusual thing. I was laughing or something like that, so I think he took me for some kind of weirdo and smiled.

Then the second time, I was coming out of the washroom, in a very bad mood. I think I was slamming the door that leads to both washrooms and he was walking past. I think I looked murderous. I saw him and my expression changed, lol. To one of surprise, I think he thought I was in my weird moods again, as he smiled.

Anyway, yesterday, I saw him walking towards me just as I was going into my office and I was thinking, alright, I’ll play it cool, and normal. Gave him a look and a smile. I think he was pretty surprised. (Could he have forgotten me? Oh no.) Then he smiled. Score one for me :)

New (Nu) Skin, baby!

Well, what can I say other than it’s great. Went to this Nu Skin demonstration thing with Sam and her friend Kimmy. (Um, demonstration as in a sample facial, not the wave picket signs kind of demonstration) So they did half a facial for us, like, half a face, so that we can see the difference. There is a difference, I guess, but only when they point it out then it becomes really obvious. I guess real difference comes with prolonged using. Hmm.

So the girl, Jane was like, you have dry skin here and here. And I didn’t even notice that; my skin was flaking off, sign of dry skin. It must be the air conditioning. No more air conditioning at night. God, and the office too. Sigh. But she is right.

So, I think I would get the exfoliate scrub thing, which imo is really good. And maybe the clay pack thing, if I get it at dealership price, it’s not that much more expensive than Shiseido anyway. It’s the retail price that is scary.

Oh, I also have to point out that I was really worried about meeting Kimmy, what with the whole blog fiasco. But she turned out to be really nice and friendly and easy to talk to. We didn’t really talk at first, but on the way back, her journey was about the same as mine, so we talked a little more. I’m glad that she didn’t dislike me or anything.

As a joke, I just opened my singnet mailbox.

I have 276 incoming mail.

Also, I realise that I'm a friend of Hilton Hotel. Right.

For those who didn't know what it meant to be a hedonistic bum (ie Me)

hedonism - living and behaving in ways that mean you get as much pleasure out of live as possible, according to the belief that the most important thing in life is to enjoy yourself.

I like that idea. I'm a hedonistic bum.

What it takes to be Christine.

Languid-Sexy....
You rock the messy hair and crisp white cotton
sheet. Your idea of bliss is a day spent in
bed with your lover. There is nothing wrong
with that, though some people like to leave the
bed at times. You're a total fox, even if you
are a hedonistic bum.


What's your brand of sexy?
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I called the Ngee Ann City Modelling thing today and told them I do not want to join them. Which I think I'm brooding alot about. B/c mum already told me she would pay the fees needed. I don't know. After how BaoYing told me the thingy that happened with her friend, I feel I cannot really commit. Lol. Maybe when I'm a little richer, I'll walk past Tangs again and see if they'll offer me the modelling thing again :)

-Crucify- You're "Crucify" from both the
"Crucify" and "Little
Earthquakes" albums. You're probably
really fed up with not being able to stand up
for yourself. You wonder why everything gets
messed up, and actually, you make a lot of
sense.


Which Tori Amos Song Are You?
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Following on Kym's Tori Amos craze, I took a tori amos quiz. cool. I like the description. true to a certain extent.

Suddenly felt quite sad that didn't take up the modelling thing.

I remembered another excerpt of conversation I overheard between X (or BritishIndia Guy lol) and another person (W)

P 'Where is she from?'
she gestures to me

X 'She's from Singapore.. Why?'
he turns back a little, I pretend to be busy rearranging some stuff, I didn't even look in that direction! Hah

P 'Oh, I initially thought she was Malaysian
I don't know why. Malaysians and Singaporean Chinese girls have different looks?

X turns and look at me, then back again 'No, I don't think Malaysia has girls as pretty as her'

And the funny thing is that I didn't feel offended or anything. Felt strangely hot and bothered.

Gosh.

Channel U is doing this show on good-looking athletes and Leslie Kwok… hmmm …mmmm…yumm

*10 minutes later*

So as I was saying, Channel U is doing this show on good-looking athletes and Mark Chay… hmmm …mmmm.

Sorry, I meant to say I suddenly realized that my cousin looks really like Mark Chay. This cousin I once had a crush on.

Suddenly, I also realized that I always have crushes on weird people. Weird as in weird relationship, not that they are weird personality or weird looking people.

hey

Hah! just found this new website where they give you answers to the 'why did the chicken cross the road' question?

you can access it here

anyway, just cut and pasted some of the funnier quotes.

'Why did the chicken cross the road?'

George Bush's Answer:
We don't really care why the chicken crossed the road. We just want to know if the chicken is on our side of the road or not. The chicken is either with us or it is against us. There is no middle ground here.

Al Gore's Answer:
I invented the chicken. I invented the road. Therefore, the chicken crossing the road represented the application of these two different functions of government in a new, reinvented way designed to bring greater services to the American people.

Bill Gates' Answer:
I have just released eChicken 2003, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook - and Internet Explorer is an inextricable part of eChicken.

Martin Luther King Jr's Answer:
I envision a world where all chickens will be free to cross roads without having their motives called into question.

Grandpa's Answer:
In my day, we didn't ask why the chicken crossed the road. Someone told us that the chicken crossed the road, and that was good enough for us.

Barbara Walters' Answer:
Isn't that interesting? In a few moments we will be listening to the chicken tell, for the first time, the heart-warming story of how it experienced a serious case of molting and went on to accomplish its life-long dream of crossing the road.

Aristotle's Answer:
It is the nature of chickens to cross the road.

Saddam Hussein's Answer:
This was an unprovoked act of rebellion and we were quite justified in dropping 50 tons of nerve gas on it.

Voltaire's Answer:
I may not agree with what the chicken did, but I will defend to the death its right to do it.

Bill Clinton's Answer:
I did not cross the road with THAT chicken. What do you mean by chicken? Could you define chicken, please?

The Bible's Answer:
And God came down from the heavens, and He said unto the chicken, "Thou shalt cross the road." And the chicken crossed the road, and there was much rejoicing.

Albert Einstein's Answer:
Did the chicken really cross the road or did the road move beneath the chicken?

Sigmund Freud's Answer:
The fact that you are at all concerned that the chicken crossed the road reveals your underlying sexual insecurity.

Buddha's Answer:
If you ask this question, you deny your own chicken nature.

Carl Jung's Answer:
The confluence of events in the cultural gestalt necessitated that individual chickens cross roads at this historical juncture, and, therefore, synchronicitously brought such occurrences into being.

(Love this guy! have you seen his pictures?)
MC. Escher's Answer:
That depends on which plane of reality the chicken was on at the time.

George Orwell's Answer:
Because the government had fooled him into thinking that he was crossing the road of his own free will, when he was really only serving their interests.

Emily Dickenson's Answer:
Because it could not stop for death.

Colonel Sanders' Answer:
I missed one?

I’m feeling happy!

Catching up

Saw or met Siew Lee at the Jurong MRT today and was quite happy to see her. I mean, I have not seen her in ages when I won’t, she was like and it feels good to catch up with friends. Didn’t get to talk much to her as my stop was about 1-2 stations away, but it was good to catch up with her.

I am a dealer
I’m so glad my boss is finally giving me some really important stuff to do. Apparently, she has some business dealings on the side, and I’m supposed to contact some companies regarding some dealership thing. And I’m supposed to follow up to any developments to this dealership thing. It’s cool, like, she’s giving me full reins for this project or something. I guess that’s one reason why I am uncomfortable about jumping ship to Dell. My boss here really treats us very well.

My colleague
My new colleague is really great, she’s from China, but somehow, I don’t get bad vibes from her. I used to get bad vibes from PRCs, especially women. But she’s great. Really nice and friendly. I remember I was really freezing during my stint at Mandarin, and she was like, you can take my jacket. And, group hug around me so I won’t be cold. I like it that working at this company really changed my biased view against PRCs. We are now good friends!

Another thing for you guys to laugh at
Today, someone called me and said ‘Hi, this is Zhen Zi’. Now, if you are not Chinese, you probably won’t get the funny part. Let me explain. Remember the horror movie ‘The Ring’? Well, the ghost or monster, whatever, is called Sadako, or ‘Zhen Zi’ in Chinese. That why I was a little freaked when this person called and spoke in this whispery voice, and informed me she was ‘Zhen Zi’. I seriously thought some joker was playing a prank, then I realised that ‘Zhen Zi’ was really the name of the poor soul who was calling me. Oh well. I guess it’s not my turn to say ‘Yeah, and I am bride of Frankenstein’

OMG
Just saw on the news that there are 2 cases of bombing in separate Universities in China. And from my knowledge, both are the top-level Universities in China. I hope this isn’t some kind of terrorist affair.

Re: Modelling thingy

Of course, I’m not going for it. I mean, the thing sounds ok and legal and so on. Courses are sponsored by the company and all. 6 weeks training course on every Sunday. I couldn’t even make it for the course as I have organ lessons every Sunday. She was very nice about that, was saying we can postpone the whole thing until after my organ exams are over (about June). Then she goes on to tell me that I’ll have to get 3-inch heels for cat walking (good god), some other thing that I forgot, and a set of professional makeup. There is it. The catch. It’s 550 bucks! Christ. Like I had $550 lying about. I’m broke enough and my pay isn’t that great in the first place. So, I’ve decided to forgo it. I’m very surprised at the number of people who signed up for it though. Quite a number of them.

Anyway, just a thought. I was looking at the photos of the ‘models’ on the board they had there and it surprised me how many of them are actually not very good looking. I mean, Sam and I could take a neoprint and look better than 90% of them who had makeup on. Ok. I’m very conceited. But I’m also very honest.

Dell wants me
I can’t believe I’m so incredibly stupid not to jump ship to Dell computer when I was offered the job. It pays much much more than my current job and the great thing is Bao Ying is there as well; it’s more fun with a friend. Anyway, Elizabeth was really nice, and was like, well if you need a job, you can call me. I’m going to give a serious thought to it. Maybe as a part time thing.

clarification

Hah! With the kind of description Sam’s been giving about me on her blog, I am probably a goddess in the minds of the readers. The problem is, I’m not. Lol. That should set the record straight.

OHMYGODI’MINTERESTEDINCHINA

I seriously think I’m going a little nuts. One year ago, I won’t even look at a book with the word ‘China’ written on it. Anyway, I borrowed 2 books today, both on China. And the scary thing is that I’m very interested in it. Of course, I am only interested in the TianJin part. That is the only part that matters.

*waves* Hey, read me. I'm significant too, you know.

Christine – Student, Admin Assistant, Organist, Stalker

Hah! Got your attention, didn’t it? Shall reveal more later.

(I love it. I sound like one of those TV trailer thingy)

Hi, I’m a talent scout. And you are scouted

So… That’s pretty much what happened on Saturday. Was out with Sam on Saturday and we walked past the Tangs area when this girl approached me. Was a bit of a shock’ when this girl came forward and said ‘you must be above 1.6 m right?’ I seriously thought she was going to sell me something. Then she was like, ‘my company is looking for new faces and would you like to join us’ or something. I thought Sam didn’t hear it, so I was like ‘she’s above 1.6m too’. But it turns out she was asking me, and not the both of us and I was seriously embarrassed.

Anyway, just for the fun of it, I gave her my number and the company called me and set up a date. Well. Although it was fun that I was asked, it would be better if both of us were asked imo.

A question of self-esteem?

Then we walked into the Tangs beauty hall and I was so embarrassed about the whole thing that I apologised to Sam. I don’t even know why; I just said ‘I’m sorry about just now’ and I think she was surprised too, as she was like ‘for what?’ I think the whole thing bugged her a lot.

We were later at Paragon when she was saying how she’s afraid her future boyfriend would ‘elope’ with me and how her boyfriend must see the both of us and chose her before she will consider him. (My last sentence was a little long, and didn’t make much sense huh) If anything, Sam is one of the more confident people I know, that’s why I find it weird that she would feel like this.

I’m putting this here so you guys can have a laugh at my expense

A couple of days ago, a car ran over my cell phone. Yes, you heard it right, OVER MY CELL PHONE. I was struggling to get it out of my bag and it flew out of my hand and landed on the road. Then a car ran over it.

Somebody behind me screamed. And I watched as the car ran over the corner of my phone and my phone sitting innocently there as if nothing was happening. And judging by my reaction, it was as if nothing has happened also. I was too shocked I guess. I smsed Pei Shan immediately and asked if she would call me to see if my phone is in working condition. I worked, although my phone is a little weird sometimes. Oh well.

X ‘Did you get any flowers during V day this year?’
Me ‘No, none this year’
X ‘Why that’s not possible, guys should be queuing up for that’

Religion

Was just reading Kym's blog, and she was talking about religion. Which got me thinking about my own beliefs. For the longest time, I didn’t dare to explore this topic. I’m afraid that when it’s all said and done, I will come to realise that in have no faith in anything, and life for me is one big mess. And in the first place, I don’t have inkling what religion is supposed to mean.

Sometimes I think I don’t make any sense when I talk about religion matters.

For just once, I would like to believe wholeheartedly in a religion. Believe that that’s what my life is structured around and where I should put my faith. I think that’s still not really possible for me now. I keep thinking that religion is for the period of time when you are older, and where you have more time to think about the entire concept of life after death. When you are young, you are probably too busy to think about this subject. I’m wrong, of course; there’s actually no age limit for thinking about religion.

This is really too heavy a topic for a Saturday morning :)

Whew, this took awhile. Am not going to touch the computer until my eyes get better. lol. HTML isn't fun. Ah well, at least I resolved the whole silly incident by going back to my old layout. Bleah.

No more tag board! Hah! Haha! Got this new chatter thingy. Prob means all my old stuff is gone, but what the heck.

Dang. it just doesn't support my stupid tag board. That's why I changed it in the first place. Bah! I'm so sick and tired. And it has weird colours. Pretty colours, but I didn't remember putting them in. How did I put them in anyway?
Will get to it as soon as I'm feeling better.

raspberry
This hasn't been a fantastic week, been very sick (flu, cough, sneezing). Must be my stint at Mandarin.

Also have been working the whole week to bring my old site layout back. The cause of it all started when I used the block coloured site to support my tag board, so I'm thinking, well, I'll just change it back to the old one and somehow fit my tagboard in. It wasn't easy work considering I'm tired and sick and upset as hell. Oh well. Hope this resolves things.

Just got off the phone with Shuhui and realised she has a new one. Seems like both of ours would be about similar again.Well. If it weren't for past incidents, this whole thing will be damn hilarious. lol Too tired to check it out today, maybe next week.

Here's a link to Broken_Pryncess's fab site! I really loved reading her thought provoking posts, so I'm letting the whole internet in on her site! lol.

You can access it here

special mention
My fort friend, broken pryncess has an amazing blog, and while she says she's not too good at html, I feel she has a very nice set up on her page, and she's been working on it just recently!
I would like to post a link to her blog here, but let me ask her first.

John's a celebrity!
I would just like to say this - John's a celebrity! He's featured first page on a big newspaper. Yay!
Now that John is famous, let's see, I first knew John when... :)
Amazing how the internet links people from different countries together,huh.

Freakishly rich
Remember the guy manager who gave me that pendant thing? He's very nice, bought me a a bag of fruits after I told him I've eaten.
I also just found out that he is a business man who owns jewellery shops and 2 florists'.

Get this. He earned S$60,000 on Valentine's day.

Wow.

Hah! I am a celebrity

Funny isn’t it? How seemingly shitty event could turn out to be so much more. In one of my earlier posts, I mentioned how I screwed up my host the charity event thingy? To introduce the special guests? Well. Something amusing happened today.

I was as office filing some stuff when the phone rang, so I picked it up. It was this guy from Mandarin Hotel, and was looking for my boss. Ok…so I told him that she wasn’t in, using my ‘proper telephone etiquette’ (ie, speak slowly, according to my boss). So was telling him she wasn’t in, may I take a message or would you want to call her cell. Nearing the end of our conversation, he was like,

Him ‘You are?’
Me ‘Christine Chew’
Him ‘You were at the exhibition as well right?’
Me ‘Urm… yes.’ (I was surprised. I certainly didn’t go around announcing my name)
Him ‘Oh, you were the one who introduced Ven. Shi and the Chinese Ambassador right?’
Me ‘Correct, that’s me’
Him ‘Yes, I thought it sounded like you’

Now, I’m surprised because, (1) that happened one whole week ago. (2) the total air time I had amounted less than 2 minutes.

Well. Not bad huh. Maybe should consider something in DJing. Hah.

Things I hate

Uncertainty.
Longing.
Impossibility.

The revelation that the above is how I feel. And how things are going to turn out.

I think I'm going to go stark raving mad. Bah.

Post exhibition thoughts

The exhibition is over, and it’s back to the normal everyday life pre exhibition.

Before this, I had to mail many invitations and call up many clients to invite them. MD’s husband, L, would be there also. (I thought he was her bf or something, only very much later I knew she was married and to him, L. Gosh). It would be abuzz, fun; even the weather would be sunnier. Also, the Director that I had a crush on, X, (In the previous post he was D, but X would be more appropriate) will also be there sometimes although I didn’t care much about him.

At the last day of the exhibition, I arrived a little late and went to put my bag down. I was wearing a red shawl that day and X was like ‘wow, why the attention grabbing colour?’ and then MD’s husband, L was like ‘why did you carry such a large bag?’ That was the kind of atmosphere there. Everyone greets you when you come, no matter whom you are. It was nice to arrive at a place and have such attention, I must say.

more than that

I’ve found more reasons to be in like with X. I explained that the large bag was because I had to put all my organ stuff as I had class that day. Then X was like, well, I can teach you. MD’s daughter was saying how he knew how to play the piano, organ, and paint as well. I must say I’m very impressed.

It was like I’ve envisioned this perfect guy, manly, charismatic, yet with an artistic streak. And someone just dropped him there. There. I almost cannot imagine someone so male as him paint and play the piano. It’s almost ridiculously perfect. Someone was like, ‘you are born in the wrong era, you should be born about 500 years back, then you’ll be a scholar’. Well, if I had my way, he’d be born two years before me. :) But then again, he’d not have that kind of special something older men have.

Anyway, he had to leave town right after the exhibition, to go back to his law firm. (He’s a lawyer too. Too good to be true. And the law firm is really his). Well. I really don’t know what to say after it’s all be done and over with.

On a lighter note, another one of the manager was like, choose a pendant (from the remaining exhibits) and I’ll give it to you. Of course I said no. But he chose one and gave it to me anyway. Well. That was very nice of him.

Absolutely sweet

I was just randomly typing addresses into the blogspot address to see I’ll get any interesting hits, and I found this absolutely charming blog site! I would not disclose the address here, well, because I think it’s a really private site. But the idea of the site is very sweet. Basically, two people run this site, both are in different countries and this is how they keep in touch. By leaving each other messages on the site. I think that’s really really charming and romantic. In fact, it’s so private, I read like 3 entries before I decided not to read anymore. Felt like I was an intrusion into their private world.

Somehow, I wished I had someone to miss too.

gah

Sheer Madness
OR
Now I know Why Older Men Are More Attractive

This, is the trouble. I think I have a like for one of the director bosses in the company I'm working in. He's been in town for a few weeks but I've only got to talk to him this week.

I think now I know why women are attracted to older men. I know I am.

I'm SO scaring myself!

Ok, let me begin from the start. He came to the office with his family (he's the director of the company in another branch company) about 3 weeks ago. I was introduced to him as I was assistant to the MD. Ok. I shake hands with him. I didn't even look at him then. I was too preoccupied with another cute guy from another company the same level.

Then exhibition week. All of a sudden, I am seeing alot of Mr.Director (or D, as I will call him) and also MD's husband. The first day, D treated us to lunch. As we were walking back to Mandarin, my colleague turned to me and said 'D is pretty attractive isn't he? Doesn't look the type who's married. Got the kind of reckless, couldn't care less attitude about him'. This from a colleague who's happily married. I swear she had something on him. Then I begin looking at him in a more different way.

Then I realised that what they say about older men being sexy is very very true. In the past it made me wince, now it made sense. Sometimes when the exhibition is going a little slow, we'll sit about and talk. He's very nice in the sense that he'd always try to draw me into the conversation, (as did MD's husband.) And I realised that he has this very nice way of looking at the speaker directly in the eyes.

And he'd also have a way of looking at me when I daydream and do not join in the conversation. He'd keep quiet, looking in my direction until I look up and he'd ask why am I day dreaming. Not in a mean way, but in an amused way. And the way he speaks. Deep voice, charismatic. The kind where people listen.

I guess that's what so attractive about him. Charisma. Of course, he's not so much older than me that it's almost 'dad-esque', that would be disgusting. He does have a daughter, whom I've met, and really liked, we talked a lot. I know... it's bad enough. If I've read this on someone else's blog, I would have recoiled in horror. But, this is just so... different.

Older men just know how to behave. They know how to talk to a girl and make her feel special. They know how to look into your eyes when you speak, make you feel important. It didn't hurt that he looks very good for his age also. Alludes a different kind of sexiness. Even his actions are regarded differently by people. He stood beside me and listened as I talked to brother on the phone, then asked me about my dinner plans (as I was discussing dinner plans with bro). It would have totally irritated me if it were someone else, but it just felt special.




OhgodwhatamItalkingabouthehasawife!

Big trouble

I'm in trouble.

the great m)phosis sale

Went with ps to m)phosis last week and bought 2 tops, a pink spaghetti top and a white tube one.
Went again after work (at Mandarin) and bought another spaghetti top, blue this time, in almost the same design.

And a tube dress with a huggy waistline and a flowing skirt! That's one of my guilty pleasure buys :)

Checking in for a while

backfired

I've devised a really devious plan to make use of my company's broadband service harhar. At home, I only have slooowww 56k dial up and when I saw broadband, I was like ahhh... So.. having just lost my hard disk drive (to a virus. ANGRYRANT) and all my *cough*downloadedmp3files*cough* I've decided to just download the songs in my office and transfer it back home via my mp3player! Btw, I rule. Haha.

Anyway, it didn't work. I got the songs (2 minutes per song. I'm in heaven) and installed the programme for the player and everything. Then I couldn't find the USB port on the office computer. Dang. Actually, I managed to plug it in to something that looks vaguely like a USB but it didn't work.

RANTRANTRANT

What a crazy 2 days I've had!

The company I'm working in is holding a Charity Exhibition in this really swanky Mandarin (I always have trouble spelling this word) Hotel. Anyway, I, of course, had to be there to help with the exhibition. To say the truth I'MVERYVERYVERYEXCITED! Ok. Maybe because the press would be there, and you know the fascination the public has for anything remotely related to the media.. Ahem, not that I've never been close to the media before, in fact, when I was quite young ...

Ok.

So, was busying around trying to get things ready when my boss came over and told me 'You'll have to be the MC. Your job starts in 3 minutes'. I went 'what? Of course, I had no choice but to do it. And then the 367 things I had to remember came in. 'Ven. Shi would not give a speech', 'You have to address the Chinese Ambassador as His Acescency (sp?), that is the only correct way to address him', 'Remember to call Director Chen up to say a few words, after His Acescency, beefore Ven. Shi' Yada Yada Yada.

Of course, I screwed the whole thing up.

Venerable would not give a speech, his manager told me. So I went and said he'll give a speech. I must say that Venerable is very kind. He seemed taken aback for a while, then was like, 'You want me to give a speech?', I was like 'yes?' and he consented. I mean, no airs about him. Of course, his manager looked as though he would scratch my eyes out. He came over and said 'why did you do that for'. In a very sarcastic mood, mood, I would have replied 'well, I'm sorry. I just got this job 3 minutes ago, I had 298 things to remember and I am fricking nervous too. Of course I did that on purpose.'. But I did the right thing and apologised.

Also, His Ascency didn't look too pleased that I rushed through his introduction. May I say that when I'm nervous, I speak like a bullet train.

And oh, later, Venerable's manager came over to ask if I'm okay and apologise to me for overreacting. Hah. Thanks a lot for letting me worry for 2 hours whether I did something so wrong that I may be persecuted.

And later, this guy came up to me and was like 'you look pretty nervous just now'. Talk about an understanding person. I could have hugged him right there and then for speaking outright my fears when the rest of the people were keeping quiet and pretending the thing never happened. He then wished me a happy advanced V day. :)

re:shuhui's post

well. what can I say. it didn't bother me as much as i thought it would.

on the same muse

sometimes, it's really amazing how some of your words can be taken to mean so much more than they do at face value. i've learnt from kok that it's okay to speak your mind, if it offends people, too bad. but whatever you do, never offend yourself. i am tired of trying to put on a nice facade when i feel catty, or to try and mask my words and try not to hurt anyone. firstly because it just complicates my life and secondly, even when i do that, people do take offense. it's so much easier to be honest. i used to think it was cliche, but, 'what tangled webs we weave when we first practiced to deceive', or something like that.

i must admit that i didn't like people trying to analyse me. if i wanted something like that, i will go to a psychologist, thank you very much. but i realise that there is still freedom of speech. hence when sam 'analysed' that to me 'imitation wasn't flattery', well, what can i say? i am open to criticism just as long as it isn't flaming.

i would just like to point out that i was just thinking that wasn't the designer of the web layout a more suitable person to thank. afterall, well, that person designed the website.

if sam's friend amir get scared off my site, or my board forever because of how she perceives my words, i don't blame him. i came across as catty.

just my side of the story.

(anyway, am not using caps or anything. feeling lazy)

selected quotes from yahoo.com

WASHINGTON (Reuters) - Aircraft taking part in U.S.-British patrols attacked a battlefield missile system in southern Iraq on Tuesday in an unusual response to Iraqi threats against the air patrols, the U.S. military said.
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U.S. defense officials, who asked not to be identified, said the strike, which took place at about 7 p.m. in Iraq, destroyed at least one truck-borne Ababil-100 surface-to-surface missile, its launcher and support vehicles in the southern "no-fly" zone near Basra.
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U.S. and British jets have been increasingly attacking Iraqi air defense missiles, radars and communications for months. But strikes against surface tactical missiles are rare.
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In Baghdad on Monday, the Iraqi military said two civilians were killed and nine injured when U.S. and British planes attacked civilian facilities in Basra province. U.S. defense officials denied that any civilian target had been attacked.
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This US attack on Iraq has really got mixed feelings from me. On one hand, I can understand if President Bush wants Iraq to remove their weapons of mass destruction. After 911, all of us are wary. On the other hand, who likes war?

I have friends in the US who actually had their sons deployed. Suddenly, the whole thing seems so much closer. Sure, it's between US and Iraqi, but only the ignorant can think that it does not affect the rest of the world.

When will it all end? How would this affect the rest of the world? And how long will the after effects of war last?

Depressing, very.

For Amir

*wave* hi, thanks for dropping by my website. My plan for V day is just to stay home and slack. Well. Saying that, I must say that someone asked me out for dinner on Friday, but I said no. That's just me. I'm very blunt :)

Food for thought

Was talking to a friend via my forum, when I asked him about how it feels to be a Chinese Singaporean in America. Here’s what he says:

‘Being in a place like the South makes me more aware of being Asian—I watch what I say and do because since these people don’t run into a lot of Asians, it makes me think that I represent Asian people in their eyes, so I’m extra careful.’

(Andy, if you are reading this and prefer me not to post this up, just email me at fort_Christine@yahoo.com, or send me a pm :))

It got me thinking about how that is how I’ve viewed a majority of PRCs. I mean, I’ve always been exposed to the uglier side of people from China. Just look at those that live near my area, and you’d see. They push their way up the bus, they talk loudly unnecessarily, and somehow that’s how I pictured all PRCs. It doesn’t help after I’ve heard horror stories of relatives who’ve been to China and talk about the way taxis were grabbed.

However, I am now working in a firm where there are a number of PRCs, and I must say that the impression they give me is entirely different. They are cultured, they speak well and they are in fact, just like the rest of us, albeit the accent. They are in fact, very friendly. This director came with his family to oversee the Singapore branch, and I must say he is very friendly. Talks to me normally like, well, his friend. Same goes for all the other managers and directors. His daughter, a 14 year old, gets along really well with my colleagues and me. Like her father, she’s naturally friendly, and I must say she is very smart. Taught me what there is to know about the antiques. In fact, we got along to well that when I had to go back to office, I actually missed being at the exhibition with my new Chinese friends.

This incident really changed my mind about many conventional thoughts that I’ve had.

teenyboppers

Just saw the news that an insane number of girls turned up at the Changi Airport to see F4 arriving in Singapore.

I think that's just stupid. You stand all day and night, feel squeezy, tired and sick. Your idols come out, you catch a glimpse of them, all three seconds. They are wearing sunglasses to cover their eyes, hats to cover their head and they duck down so that they won't be caught in this mass hysteria. Their body guards shove you roughly out of the way. And you scream yourself hoarse just for this stupid 3 second non glimpse. It's just stupid.

And they think they sound logical. 'I came here to see my idol. It makes me happy, I am happy.'

Well, dearie, you didn't even see him. what you saw was a coat covered guy with his head bowed down, wearing oversized shades and a floppy hat. It could be Jerry Yan's father for all you know.Bah.

It just irks me to see these people hanging out at the airport as if their lives depended on catching one lousy glimpse of their idols.

i really hate html

apparently, this is the only layout that supports my tag board. Shall use this until i can try to configure my last one.

This is for all the singletons on v day.

((((((Cyberhugs))))))

I know how you feel.

To feel better, I have set Michael Vartan as my desktop wallpaper. Also, I have W's drawing. He’s hilarious. I would post it here if I knew how.

Oh, and I’ve been learning how to do animation gifs. I’ve done a few, but have no idea whatsoever how to post it up. Damn. I did one of ‘hot guys’ which I love dearly. For obvious reasons.

out of my mind

Being about 4 days to V day and no date in view, I fear I’m going insane. Today, I fell in crush with this guy who called my office. He’d called once before for a fax document, and called again today and was saying “hi, I called you before, I believe”. And then I just melted. It’s crazy. May just add that the first time he called, he sounded very good too. But this time, fwaw

This is crazy. He sounds youngish, but for all I know he could be an old fogey. No, old fogeys don’t sound sexy. Hah.

thank you :)

Would like to thank my friend Sam for her link to my site, also to point you readers to her fabulous site at www.scandalicious.blogspot.com. Weird. It doesn't link it directly to her site. Where is the squiggly blue line?
work

Wll, almost all of us are working now. It’s amazing how fast we grow up and make the transition from school to work. It only fully hit me when I was sitting down with PS and Sam at lunch today. Suddenly, we are not students anymore. We are working. We are complaining about out jobs, we are chatting where to go after work, we are calling each other up to go for lunch together.

Cool 

I’m going to use a cliché. We are in ‘the real world’

Sam might be ending her job this week, and PS in a month. Personally, I don’t know how long I would work here. However, I hope we could continue to work in the same area, so we can have lunch together still.

4E4

Went for house warming at Clarence's house yesterday. Clarence was sporting a spiffy new haircut, not unlike that of my overachiever cousin who went in for NS. J. Clarence went in on the 24th, about 2 days after my cousin. Anyway, loved his take on food ‘you could throw it on the wall and it’ll bounce back. Rice, anything’. Lol. Some of the other guys are in ns as well. Qihan and weiyuan, I think.

Caught up with many people. Tomato, for one, got married! To think I was talking to her a few days ago and didn’t get around to talking about that. It was only at the ROM, I think the wedding dinner would be after her U. Her wedding photos at the ROM were gorgeous. I think she is very brave to go through such an important event in life at so young an age. And her wedding ring! Diamonds! I was so staring at it. Lol

Also, many of the guys in poly were sporting gross haircuts. Or should I say hair uncut. Seriously. Zhihui had probably the worst dress sense also. Heh. Bright orange boxers. Lol

Also, this is probably going to come out all weird and such, but I think someone was messing around with the digital cam, or something. But I saw a couple of pictures of myself in the digi cam. It’s very obvious, b/c I’m the only one wearing bright pink. Which is weird also, because, um. Why would anyone do that? And also, I didn’t notice it. Well. Probably someone messing around.

Yay! It worked. Thanks to Lol_its_fun

Best of both worlds?

Dad was probably right to say that once I've got accustomed to the working life, I would find that if I don’t go to work, I would feel weird.

My friend at RE was probably right to say that once you start working, you would rather stay a home and slack.

I’ve felt both at certain periods of time. When the going is good, I could not picture myself slacking at home, it’ll be dreadful. When the going is bad, I wish I were at home chilling out, curling up with a cup of peach tea, and watch tv.

Well, now I know why people want to work from home. The best of both worlds J




Sell me a policy, NOT

Remember the guy who called me and asked if we could lunch together? Well. He called yesterday. I had plans with Sam for lunch at Delifrance’s so I was like, you can join us. So Sam and I got there and we took a table with 2 seats. (okay, I must say I tried to find bigger tables, but there were none. And the only three seater table was in a weird place). So he came and it was quite awkward, as I was standing up and I realised he was shorter than me. And it was probably awkward for him as there is no seat for him. Of course, he got another seat. And the lunch? Ho Hum. Boring. Talked a little here and there. I must say that I am very distant.

And of course, please do take my friend, Sam’s blog entry about this incident with a pinch of salt. Because that guy was so totally not interested in me. He was interested in her! That being said, I feel I must substantiate by saying that the both of them were very engrossed in conversation, and also, he walked her back to her office. Hah! Okay, that was because they were going to the same direction. But still. Must point out the very obvious and glaring height difference though.

Note to guys - You should never check girls out in a group.

Please, don't ever scare a girl by doing just that. Imagine yourself, walking past a group of guys. And the whole group turns and stare at you and their heads turned toward your direction such that they look like bobbing head dolls. Bleah. You can be very cute, but again, you can be very freaky. Look and learn, buddy.

Asked me out for lunch.
Well.

It must be the first time a stranger did that. Asked me out for lunch, I mean.
I was going home using the Tanjong Pagar MRT instead of the Raffles MRT that day when this guy doing some survey for Prudential approached me. After asking some questions, I came straight out and told him 'Look, I'm a student, no way I afford any of these policies'. He was like, yeah. And then said, maybe you would like to leave your number with me and we can meet up for lunch or something. I laughed (not at his face or anything, but amusedly). He gave me his name card too and said I could call him up for lunch if 'I was feeling bored' or something. Uh...Anyway, he was okay looking. Cute in a pleasant kind of way.
Well.

The hottest men

Michael Vartan is the hottest guy ever. *fans self* Now I know why Sher, Summer and the other fort girls are crazy about him.
Shane West is the second hottest guy ever.

Saw this pic on the FORT about 2 really cute guys kissing. And it does not look weird. In fact, it's appealing,to quote Fluff. And man, those guys were cute.

I think I'm going to name my son Shane Michael. Wait, that sounds like a wrestler.

Ok guy story number 2

Guys should never check girls out blantantly.

I mean it, although it was quite a new sensation. I was at Watson's and was looking for the Loreal Colour Vive Shampoo and could not find it although the tag is there. I then went tried to look for a shop person so I could ask when the next stock is coming. He was talking to another customer but I was in a hurry so I sort of said 'excuse me' and 'snatched' him away. His back was towards me and when he turned, well, he was pretty cute. Nice eyes. I'm a sucker for such things. So I was like asking him where the stuff was and he directed me to the aisle. He then was explaining why the stock was gone. And suddenly I really knew the meaning of eyes running up and down your body. I swear. I was looking at him and his eyes were like looking at me eyes - body - legs, and back again. Then he smiled. Mildly disconcerting, would be worse, I think, if he were not so good looking. But he was goodlooking so it was okay :).

Chinese New Year
Was quite fun this year as bought more clothes :) so can actually choose which to go with which in the style fashion conscious girl ' Does this top go with this?'.
Had quite a lot of fun at cousin's house too. Oh, the overachiever cousin is in the Army. Funny hair, harhar. He was wearing this cap thingy which I think is quite ugly. Went to this Malay food place which was supposedly very good. And it's was pretty okay, imo, not that fantastic or anything

*guy incident*
Went down to buy some cough drops of mum and there was this group of guys sitting at the pavillion thingy. Then this pretty cute one was looking at me :). And when I walked pass the pavilion thingy to to shop, he actually turned and looked at me. And smiled. Nice smile. Nice guy. I smiled in my best disinterested way and looked away. I probably don't want any form of relationship now.

Ok, I haven't been on for quite long, partially because I overshot my internet access time last month. And the fort is taking up alot of time! :)

Anyway, have just typed up a few posts that happened during Jan. Catagorised them

Class events

Steamboat at Mike's yesterday, for NY celebration or something. Mm was there really early! Probably to book the television ;). Smart chick, as I wanted to watch American Idol. Anyway, Ps was v nice to let me watch most of the AI show tho it clashes with her programme. Was quite fun, Pearly, Yif, Liyi and Yanmei were there too. Actually was feeling quite poorly after watching AI. Wonder why. Therefore went home early with Yanmei. Talked to her about the driving test that I'm taking today! She says it's pretty easy. Hmmm. She told me to read the book too, which i didn't do. Wonder how Sl did on her test. She didn't come to the steamboat as she's in Malaysia.

20th Jan - Went for bbq cum steamboat at Marina with the class to 'send ben off'. Lol. Sounds very funny, don't know why. Was pretty fun, but can't say that about the food. Oh Aaron was selling pineapple tarts and he told me before that, but I bought some from Taka that day. Very nice. Was a little embaressed that didn't buy from Aaron. Anyway, before that, went out with Mm and Ps to buy clothes. Ps bought 2 pairs of shoes!! I bought a denim skirt. Very nice. Mm, didn't buy anything. Hai, shopping with her is hard :)

14th Jan - Aaron's and Andrea's bday celeb at Glass House Fish and Co. Was v surprised when walked there late and saw only Baoying. Was sayinh how weird that the whole gang was late when we saw that the rest were inside *laughs*. Nice dinner, Felicia liased with the waiter and he led the whole table to singing Happy Birthday. And oh, Aaron had his cousin with him and she was adorable! Like an elf, but probably she wasn't very comfortable around strangers (and Aaron smsed us to apologise for his cousin. Well, I didn't mind the cousin, was cute).
Went to an Irish pub, sat around but didn't really order. Quite weird to have these people looking at you. And then went to Bboss for desert. Nice. But filled with nuts. Bleah.
Then went to play pool. Hmm...left pretty late so shared cab with Yifang. Totally forgot about the midnight surcharge. It was not even 12 yet! Evil taxi driver. Whatever, I was quite tired. And Yifang was sharing so it makes it okay. :)

Anyway, had another gathering in Dec for Pearly's bday and went to Kenny Rogers. Quite fun, cannot really remember who went (Pearly, Baoying, Me, Yifang, Mike, Ben and???) Sat around at Suntec tower garden place and talked.