PMS at the wrong time

Hm. I ate lunch with Cher on Monday. And her 2 SEP friends. Er... S and K, apparently the same guys we ate lunch with a couple of weeks ago. In a sense, it's good cause I obviously didn't want to eat lunch with people who will piss me off. Given my track record for the past week, there is a huge probability I will be pissed off quite easily. I don't know why. PMS perhaps?

Anyway, like I probably said in my last entry, I thought one of the guys were cute. I think it's K that I thought was cute. All the time Val and Cher thought S was cuter but *shrug, never appealed to me. But I was so tired and shagged and upset that I couldn't even talk. (Why? I blame it on PMS) Anyway, it was quite sad, cause I really didn't mind er... talking to him. Really. Ha ha. Not that I'm saying that he'd want to, heh. *goes into a downward spiral of self doubt. Ha ha! Kidding.

Love is not something that happens to you.

Then what is it? Apparently, as I've read somewhere, Love is something that you do.

What exactly do I have to do then?

Hmpf. Maybe I haven't been giving out love-y vibes.

Sometimes I wish I could be in a Wong Kar Wai movie. Love comes creeping up on you (ITMFL), love is almost effortless, you can fall in love with anyone you choose to (Chungking Express). And obsession is okay, in fact, you will end up with the person you are obsessed with. He'll tell you 'I'll go anywhere you want to take me' (Chungking Express). And love is always passionate and romantic. It's always painful and it always kills you inside.

That's how love should be.

Maybe it's.... your anger.

Seems like a lot of people are getting me pissed lately. What is this? Piss Christine off month? Hmpf. Luckily the thing with Kevin is already resolved. Enter WH. Ugh. Imbecile.

Touch a little on how the Kevin thing was resolved. Went like this.

Me (Peer into clubroom and sees Kevin inside)
Me (Had no choice but to go in cause I need to get stuff from my pigeon hole)
Kevin 'Hello'
Me (A little too quickly) 'Hey'
Kevin 'I hope you're not still angry with me'
Me 'Ha ha! Of course not! I've long forgotten about it!'

blah blah.

I'm sorry, but it's IS that boring and anti climatic. At least there's 1 less person to be pissed about.

Spend................ And spend somemore

Gack! HAve been spending like it's nobody's business. In the past couple of days, I've spent stuff buying things like

Bedsheets from Aussino
3 tops from Giodano
2 tops from Series
3 tops from Zara
Olay whitening mask and creme (yes I've fallen for the evil whitening fad)
In The Mood For Love VCD (only because the DVD was sold out and I needed one urgently)
New contact lenses cause my old ones broke!!! :(
Sally Hansen Rainbow Prisms nail polish (In Pink Gold, cause South Sea Pearl was out)

And stuff I can foresee myself spending money on --

A new cleanser from I don't know where, but that's going to cost.
New phone (Dear 8310's dying on me)
A good laptop cover for my darling lappie (around 30 bucks)
A beach vacation (with people only invited by Cher and me. Ha ha)
More clothes (I need a cute skirt and even more tops)

And of course more stuff I don't need but I want to own! Heh

Update on horrible Kevin

On Saturday, I went to school for M&O SPP. Was actually 'supposed' to go to the SRC for the SAC run, but 1) did not want to run and 2) had volunteered to be at registration booth but was unceremoniously dumped by Wendy Liu. (Hm, maybe should have exhibited more anger than to just shrug it off. Hm... Well. That biyotch!)

Anyhow, I just got on the shuttle bus and was on the 'aisle' when out of the corner of my eye I saw someone on the left gesture. However, it didn't seem to be directed at me in any sense, so I didn't pay attention to it. For all I know, the person could be doing... some stretching exercises... on a bus. Erm. Whatever, you get what I mean.

So I walked to the back of the bus. And when it reached Bizad, the 'gesturer' turned and I realised that it was Kevin. Grahh!! Maybe have seen wrongly... I won't know cause the moment I noticed it was him, I started off the bus and didn't even look back. I didn't need an early morning accusation as to why I wasn't at the SRC. And I didn't want to explain the whole long circumstance to him. Then realised that if that indeed was Kevin and if gesture was a gesture at me, i.e. a 'hello' gesture, then will be incredibly rude of me to have acted the way I have. But as per the given reasons, I didn't want to.

So how. Sam says I should be friendly. I don't know. Sometimes I couldn't care less about petty and unreasonable people, but if there are circumstances I should understand, I think I must try to understand them. So maybe I should stop holding a grudge anymore.

Today I saw a nipple ring.

Not a nipple ring per se, but a nipple ring on a nipple.

Before I go on, I would like to add that the nipple ring was on a guy, before you readers get any funny ideas.

Erm, I would also like to add that I saw it under innocent conditions.

Okay, I'm digressing too much.

Anyway, I'd like to say that I found it damn... creepy. And scary actually. It's like an extra piece of flesh hanging from one's nipple. It's weird... like having double upper lips or something like that. *shudder. And sort of unnatural. I mean, hearing about someone with a nipple piercing is alright. You don't feel shocked or whatever. But actually seeing it... it's like. Ouch!

And this might sound incredibly perverted and sadistic, but I had an urge to pull the ring.

*shudder.

Sometimes I scare myself with what I think and admit to the general public.

Shangri La

Will write it laterr

Xtina impersonators VS 5566 supporters

Just read about some stuff concerning the Christina Arguilera lookalike competition thingy at Zouk and it brings me to some issues. I didn't really see the main event at Zouk on Wed (Stats assignment due Thursday! Yuccckkkkkk) but I did see some of the preview thing when I was at Cine (last last sat, was there with Ben to watch Biggg Fish. Haha.. yes I loved it so much I watched it twice! :D:D)

I digress. I meant, I saw a couple of contestants and they were what.. prepubescent? And wearing outfits that are what, a cross between a negligee and a bikini? (Actually a sheer negligee slip over black bikini sets). It's funny, you know, kids with barely a hint of a figure in figure hugging clothes and thick nmakeup, strutting around like they are the biggest shots around. And the funny thing is, they are the biggest shots around. And I actually kind of admire them for it. I mean, it must have taken lots of guts to do that and lots of confidence to do it. And these girls actually brought it! We only watched 2 performances, and this 11 year old girl was so good at shaking her butt (lol) that she actually is better than some serial clubber! :D So all in all, I thought they were pretty cool.

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Alright, here's the other side of my entry.

I was at Westmall this sunday and last saturday, the weekends where Energy and 5566 were at Westmall respectively. Don't ask me why Westmall's so happening suddenly.

And as expected, there was a looooong queue of prepubescent girls, prepubescent guys and not so prebubescent girls and guys. And they are all sitting down there waiting for their idols to come. Some of them were there queuing even at the day before.

Like my previous example, they are still supporting their idols, they are similarly fanatics of these singers. It's just a different expression of support. And before I say anything, I do not have anything against these youths.

But I thought the queuing up was a sheer and utter waste of time. And stupid too. I definitely don't see it as a very smart thing to do.

The thing about a competition to impersonate your favourite artiste and waiting 29 hours for your idol to turn up and sign your CD is the effort, I think. Take it whichever way you will.

Thank god for best friends.

Sam, if you're reading this, thanks for listening to me. :) I can't thank you enough for your help and your listening ear.

And to Cheryl for letting me rant and remind me again what a big loser Kevin is.

Of course, Weis and Weih for letting me rant also. Mike and Nhr. Thank you.

I realised I didn't talk to a lot of people about it, but then again, I have enough support from you guys. :D

Being happy

One thing I'd like to talk about today is being happy.

I think it's really underrated as a 'wish' sort of thing.

I mean, when a person asks me what do I want in life, I'd oftentimes answer 'To be happy'. And they'll look at me like, 'That's such a cliched and careless answer! It justs show how unfocused and unambitious you are!' And I think, 'That's just not true'

It really has to do with what 'happy' really means. Think about it.

It's times like these I wish for someone to cry to.

I am so friggin pissed right now.

Kevin

You are a fricking stupid imbecile and you are the epitomy of a loser. I am NOT your minion and please flaunt your misguided sense of power somewhere else where the sun don't shine. You are so totally a waste of space and oxygen. It's like, you're a non entity. I've never seen a man loser who will raise his voice to a girl, be totally unreasonable, and still be so 'holier than thou'. You are a loser through and through and by god, you have no idea how much I despise you right now.

The previous entry was updated!

Business Bash @ Embassy @ The Esplanade

Guess what?

The bash was a success! Yay!

About 500 plus people turned up, both presales and door tix. 500 plus might not be a huge number or anything, but givem the fact that it was quite a deluge yesterday, and that Embassy's door sale (i.e their own crowd) is not fantastic or whatever, I think we did pretty good. And our publicity materials cost about what, less that 200 bucks!

I think we did good!

Only downside to the whole thing was that I was having a slight fever and wasn't feeling too great. That's why I didn't really dance a lot or drink that much, for that matter. I was there early at about 7 to help with the tix and stuff and went about with Weihao and Gerald to give out flyers. In case you didn't know, it's probably not allowed. Which is why I didn't give out any flyers too. :D Excuses. But like Gerald said, it's damn embarressing! Hoho. So we just walked around la.

Later met up with Shirley, Wenqi, Louis and Zhaohui and er.. walked around somemore? Haha. Cause nobody goes clubbing at 830 right?

La la. In the end we went back. Saw Yanting and Tiffany. Went into the club at about 10 and hung out with Zhaohui and Louis. And Adeline too. And we were saying that there were a lot of NS guys at the bash lol. But not that we mind, heh. Why?

Cause we need more people to come so that we can make a profit! (what were you thinking of?!)

Alright... later more people came. Delvin called, so I went out to pass him and Yingyin the tix. The turnout was not bad, as in, there was actually a queue! Hee, not the Zouk kind, you comprehend, but it was decent for a rainy night at Embassy. I didn't sit with the Bizad crew, cause I went back to sit with some other guys, but in the end I headed over... there were a lot of people! It's really great to see the support from the club and the seniors.

Dancing

And I didn't dance a lot... I was down with a slight fever-ish thing, so I sat at the couch-y area on the dance floor. Ha ha. Jess saw me there and pulled me down to join them, then the whole group of them started to push me into the middle of the dance floor?! Ha ha. Yeah. I really shouldn't steal the show from Jon. Heh heh. So i danced around for a while but later I headed out again to help with the ticketing.

Later I headed back again... Sat down with KengLeong and his friend Mark. Ha ha. KL complained that there wasn't house music. *shudder. Wrong club, Centro's the one. Anyway, Mark asked me if I wanted to dance. Heh, pulled KL old man down too. I think the music is generally quite nice at Embassy. None of that weird house/trance stuff. I mean, I like house, but only when I'm in a cooperative mood. *shrug. Whatever that means. (Sometime I scare myself when I say something that makes no sense at all)

The road home

Erm... yeah. Later I was looking around for people to share cab home. Then ended up with the 'going back to hall gang'. Then apparently some of the sports comm girls are not in the state to go home by themselves (figure that out for yourself), so Steve and KaiLee had to make sure they are safely home. So I ended up waiting for them to er... settle stuff. Then ZhaoHui offered to get his friend who stays in the area to send me back... but asked if I were up to supper first, cause that's where they are headed. In the end I didn't go with them... too weird. But later he smsed me and told me that if I had to go home, he won't mind sharing cab with me... cause AMK is near Bukit Batok?! I was like, er, it's quite far. Besides I'd already got a ride back.

High. The bouncer takes over

And who knows?! It took until about 3 am before we could start leaving!!! And here I was, not feeling too great, planning to leave at 1am, and I ended up going back at 3am!? The girls were in the washroom, and Steve asked me if I could go in and take a look at them, cause er, he says that they are not in good condition or something like that. So I went in... and indeed, I'd say that a couple of them weren't in the condition to go home alone. KaiLee was trying to make plans with them and having some trouble. And then the bouncer came?! He stood outside the place and asked us to settle the thing outside (i.e he's kicking us out, I think). Since it's the first time sth like that happened, of course I didn't know what to do. In the end we got outside, and Steve and Kailee, once more, tried to make plans, enlisting Junming's help.

What the?!

Meanwhile, it was settled that I was to travel with Steve and Karen and some guy. Cause Steve was quite adamant about letting K. leave alone or with any other guy for that matter, and K. probably didn't want to leave with Steve. And from what I know, K. didn't want to leave without that guy. And Steve didn't trust the guy. And K. didn't want to leave as yet. So how? We waited la. I called ZhaoHui but apparently they were at Hotel Rendevouz?! Then I made plans to leave with Kelvin and Yonghui, but in the end left with K, Steve and some guy. Sigh. Sad, you know. When you can't drive/ am poor and can't afford midnight fee/ do not have a personal chauffer.

It turns out that some guy is actually called Spencer and I think he's actually not the horrible take-advantage person we might think him to be. When Steve was sending K up her house, I got to talk to him, and he asked me if I was Steve's gf?!?! I was like Uh, NO! Then he asked if I was going to be. And I was like 'I'm not even that close to him!' Ha ha! That was like the funniest thing I've heard all week. Wonder where he got the impression from. Ho ho. Funny how on first glance, I was made to think that he's a horrible take advantage-y person, and in the end I was so terribly wrong. *shrug.

So ya. I reached home at 4 plus. What a night.

I'm in the mood for love... in a sense

Have I told you lately that I'm in love with Wong Kar Wai?

Maybe I haven't. So there. I'm in love with Wong Kar Wai.

I've just watched In the Mood for Love and I'm utterly amazed at the really intense, yet subtle kind of longing and affection in the movie. At the end of the movie, you feel as though you've gone on this really long journey with Tony Leung and Maggie Cheung and it really breaks your heart.

I watched half of the movie on Thursday, and the other on Friday. After watching the first half, I told myself. All WKW needs to have now, is a sad ending, and I think I will love this film for the rest of my life. That's what the whole movie is about, I think. It's not about happily ever afters. It's not about the hero always getting the heroine. It's about lost chances, fleeting moments, the inevitability of fate, I guess, in a sense. Those lost moments.

It's about repressed passion, and WKW does it so beautifully in the nuances of the film. Tony's hand reaching for Maggie's. Even the dinner scene screams of so much underlying tension, it's amazing.

I like the camera action too. It always seems that the audience is a voyeur, looking into the lives of these 2 secret lovers, in a sense. And the thing is, all throughout the movie, the relationship of the 2 'lovers' did not even pass the hand holding stage. That's why I love this movie so much. I think it's amazing how so much can be told through so little interaction. This is the kind of movie where even a shot of cigarette smoke floating over Tony's head has a lot of meaning in it.

It's almost like a lesson in the art of silent seduction.

And the ending of the movie totally breaks my heart.

That era has passed.
Nothing that belonged to it exists any more.

He remembers those vanished years.
As though looking through a dusty window pane,
the past is something he could see, but not touch.
And everything he sees is blurred and indistinct.

just got back from clubbing at Embassy.

It's 4.26, and I can't sleep. Cause my hair's not dry.

Stuff I'll write about tmr.

- Tony Leung and Maggie Cheung and Wong Kar Wai (In the Mood for Love)
- Bash at Embassy
- Some cute guys
- Being different. How so.

I've

completed my entry post for the previous entry. About going to New Asia and stuff. If you're interested.

On Tuesday

Tuesday was my birthday :) Thank you guys for all the kind messages and smses. Lol. I've saved all the bday messages and my mailbox is so full now it takes a long time to open. Heh.

Anyhow, Tuesday was cool. Went to school in the morning as usual... stats class, where SL gave me the present from MM, PS and NSL (thanks guys :)) and Peiling and Ade gave me this funky bracelet from Perlini's. Together with the presents, SL also gave me this whole bundle of stuff.. apparent letters and postcards we've exchanged over the years! *tear :) It was quite funny, seeing all the stuff I've written. You mean I was so childish? Haha. *ETA - Sam gave me a pretty bag from Project Shop, that lovely girl. And Mike gave me this cute necklace from Jo's Craft. And I loved the card! :D

Okie.. so during MA class Val passed me the present from the gang... :) The allerged $7k present, according to LArry and Zhengwei. LOl. I loved it though, it's lovely... it's Flower from Kenzo!!! *lovelove! Apparently Val remembered that I once told her about this perfume I sprayed into my pencilbox.. IntenseFlower by Kenzo. Poor girl went about looking for Intense by Kenzo and couldn't find it, so she bought Flower instead. Haha. IT's the same thing though :D

So after that, I went for Stats tutorial (yes... it's 12-5 without any substantial breaks...) and after that went for some MC meeting that KEvin told me was 'quite important for me to go'. Er... I tried to hint him that it's my bday by telling him that I had plans, but he said I had to go for the meeting. Bleag. So I was there at the meeting with the MC ppl, and then, after the meeting, I was getting ready to leave to prepare to meet the crew at Chijmes, when Kevin asked me to stay back for 10 minutes more! This time, I was like 'KEvin! I have to go!' and he's like '10 mins!'

Haha... turns out that the MC was celebrating my bday (together with Steve's and William's... hee). The cake was a gorgeous chocolate cake from Prima Deli... Kevin's pick btw. Haha... It's as good as Mike's choc cake from Sweet secrets. Got a present from the MC too :D

Went home, celebrated with the family :) Mum bought Mango Ice Cream cake from Swensens! :D *more love. What's it with bday cakes this year that tastes so... much better? Haha... Broster got me... a toothbrush?! and some teddybear t shirt thing. haha... he never ceases to amaze me

Oh later, I met Cher, Val, Weis and Weih at Chijmes for dinner. We ended up at Father Flanagans... pretty nice place. I some hot wings thingy which was quite good. Treated the guys to drinks and desert (for some of them). Had a Tequila Sunrise... pretty nice. Then we walked around taking photos.

Later we went to this place at the 72th storey of Swissotel, this bar called the New Asia. Gorgeous place. They have glass windows and the view from the 72nd storey is absolutely fantastic. It's like you actually own the places you're seeing, standing on the top, surveying what you possess. The view's so beautiful. And I love the decor too. Classy sofa recliners at the side of the windows made it the most perfect place to sit. We split a rack of Test Tube Babies. Maybe it's just me, but I thought it tastes horrible. But I've never been a big fan of alcohol *shrug.

Me and Cheryl danced a little. Music's good, but erratic. It's like, one moment it's Marc Anthony... then when me and Cher danced, the Dj switched to this chinese song that goes 'Ru Guo Shuo Ni Yao Li Kai Wo' techno version. I was like ?!?! What on earth? :D Nonetheless, the music's not too bad, and the view's gorgeous, and I absolutely love the decor. Will go back there again! :D:D

Of Wedding planning, cafes and kway chap stores.

Today, I was in queue at the Western Food store with Edmund and Zhengwei. We got to talking about jobs.

Zhengwei said it'd always been his dream to open a kway chap store. And the 3 of us got to talking, and I told them that I wanted to be a wedding planner. Open my own wedding planning company. :) And they were saying that it seems like a fun job. In fact, everyone I told this about said it sounded like a fun job.

I don't know... Suddenly I got to thinking about jobs and it worries me a little as to what I'm going to do after I graduate. It's not like I have a job lined up already or something, not like some of the people I know. Like YT, who already has a job waiting for her after graduation. And K, who got multiple job offers.

I talked to Cheryl about this before too... and she was like, maybe I should work for a couple of years in a job that pays well, get settled, get the capital and then go do what I like. In this case, to open my own wedding planning company. And that makes lots of sense right? I mean, we are practical like that. But really... how long will it take?

I'm thinking of a cafe too... PS got me thinking about it, when we were talking about it. I was saying that I wanted to open a wedding planning company, and she was saying she wanted to open a cafe. And it's really cool, I think. I envision a sort of 'Friends' style cafe. The atmosphere, the cosy decor, the feeling that you could hang out here for the entire afternoon. I remember one of my other friends told me he wanted to open a cafe too. Idea.

Maybe multiple businesses eh? ;)

So, I've been thinking about it. Cher's idea is the most practical, but I've never been a practical person. :) Oh well, I'll see about it. But if I'm really going to do it (and I will), I've already thought of the location (barring the fact that rent probably cost a bomb) -- The area near Raffles City and Chijmes... where they have those little boutiques. Where esscentials and Celia Loe are located. Yes. That's the ideal spot. *smile. Of course, I have lots of other ideas as to the shop, but I'm not going to write them here. I don't have copyright over my ideas! Haha. (yeah, must flaunt what I've learnt :D)

Okie... I've been lazy... here's a summary on what happened in the week.

Last friday, some random guy came up and sat beside me on the shuttle bus and asked me for my number. That was pretty weird.

Saturday, I screwed up my management science test, because I had to act smart and in the end, my contrains were wrong. This resulted in wrong graphing, which also led to wrong maximum point. I am so angry at myself. That was 40 marks gone down the drain. Just like that. And the question was so freaking easy! Now instead of 80 marks, I'm looking at a possible 60 marks. Or worse. Yeah, worse, cause this test is 30% of my finals. My life sucks.

Saturday I went to Mike's birthday too. Sort of coupled with a JC class gathering thing also. Good to see people I've not seen for a long time. Sam and I took a cab over.. which really really killed my allowance for the week. Alright, not killed, but put it severely off balance. It's not just 1 cab trip, I took the cab to school in the morning too. The party was fun. Apparently Kingsley came in the end; I thought he wasn't coming. Didn't really talk to Liyi, Yanmei, Sandra, Joce... in fact, I didn't talk to quite a bit of people other than PS, Sam and SL. I guess I was still quite upset about my 40 marks. I did, though, talk to Ben. Went for a walk with him. Still fun to hang out with him. Yeah.

So my plan to sell tixs to ppl also failed. Cause I was so upset about the 40 marks.

40 marks. Which could determine whether I get into honours or not.

Siggghh.

Oh well. Ricardo was there with Felicia too. He told me I was prettier. Ha ha. They seem like a cute couple. Overall, it was pretty fun. The cake was delish! Must ask Mike where he got it from. I really really liked it... although too much of it can be overkill. The whole cake was pure chocolate, chocolate sponge and chocolate cream. Sinful.

Sunday, I can't remember what I did. Oh wait, I do. :D I went out with Sam. Heh heh. She wanted to buy me my bday gift, and wanted me to chose it. That girl. In the end she bought me a bag from Project Shop. I loved it. :D I got myself a present too... a top from Zara. Lovely lacy top (which I wore to New Asia)

Sam crashed NUS on Monday cause NTU was having a break. Went to Film Art lecture. I am so in love with Wong Kar Wai!!! :D:D And I want to marry Tony Leung. Yes, as you may have already deduced, we studied Chungking Express. One of the best movies in the history of the world. Haha. It's really really good. I love the way Lin Ching Hsia was dressed up in the movie. Very film-noir-ish. If I can say that.

Went to watch Big Fish, which was an excellent movie. I loved Ewan McGregor in that movie. He's such a natural, and he's really charming. As is Albert Finney (A little old, but he's charming too, in a sense:)) I bought the book at Borders immediately after that. I bought a bag too :) Rugged haversack! *love

Update on the 20 year old Miss

Being 20 rocks.

:) I'm just consoling myself.

Shall write some stuff about what I did on the day I turned 20.

-Went to school.

-Got presents! ( I love that part)

-Went for classes and meetings

-MC meeting...

-which ended with a bday celebration for me and Steve and William, who are March babies too!

-Went home to celebrate with parentals. Had light dinner. Loves Swensens' ice cream mango cake!

-Went to Chijmes with Cher, Val, WeiS and WeiH to celebrate. Father Flanagans'

-Went to New Asia, this really gorgeous bar at the 71st storey of Swissotel. Chilled out

Yup, shall write more later.

I have hit the big 2-0. :(